I am not doing well. at all

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Registered: 11-04-2006
I am not doing well. at all
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Fri, 01-11-2008 - 12:51am

just when i think i am doing a bit better, i feel myself slipping deeper into depression. i don't feel well, i am trying to push through. tomorrow is three weeks since our breakup. i go out, try to get myself out, and all i can think is, how is he doing? what is he doing? is he missing me a fraction of what i miss him? i hate this. i feel so lonely and terrible. i am angry, sad, resentful, feel bitter. its not me at all.


i have moments of clarity where i think its for the best, then days like today where i want to curl up and never stop crying

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Registered: 11-19-2007
Fri, 01-11-2008 - 1:03am
i know exactly what you mean.
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Registered: 11-04-2006
Fri, 01-11-2008 - 1:11am
what is your breakup story? did she break up with you? what were the reasons? so sorry.
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Registered: 11-19-2007
Fri, 01-11-2008 - 1:26am

ill give you the long version...


we met in in high school (did not date) I go off to college ( 3 hour drive away), she stays at home for college.

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Registered: 11-04-2006
Fri, 01-11-2008 - 9:48am

gosh, i am so sorry. that is very painful, i am so sorry. in that situatuation she seems like she was just not mature enough for what you were willing to give her.


sorry

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Fri, 01-11-2008 - 12:34pm

Hey, just wanted to give you a hug.

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Registered: 11-19-2007
Fri, 01-11-2008 - 3:19pm

Im not really sure what the reason was.

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Registered: 11-04-2006
Fri, 01-11-2008 - 3:43pm
thanks sheri, that is very interesting. you are probably right. do you think the person that does the breaking up goes through this grieving process at any point when its over. when it sinks in that it is actually over? or just the break upee :)
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Registered: 03-26-2003
Fri, 01-11-2008 - 4:26pm

I think the person breaking up goes through the process differently--much

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Registered: 11-09-2004
Fri, 01-11-2008 - 11:57pm
Sorry to all of you. Life sucks ... I'm feeling much the same way as the rest of you - I'm now officially 12 days out of my relationship and have a million thoughts running through my head.