I can't take this much longer

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Registered: 12-14-2003
I can't take this much longer
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Wed, 09-01-2004 - 12:33pm
I know it's only been a couple of weeks, but I can't deal with this anymore...every morning I wake up and within an hour I am on the floor crying my eyes out again. This pain is way too much. I feel like I can't function without him...I keep hoping that he'll come home tonight and we'll make everything better but I know deep down that this isn't going to happen....not so soon, if ever.

Why can't I feel better? It hurts so much...I've never felt like this before and I just want the pain to stop. I should be past this insane crying by now -- in fact, I was doing so much better and now I'm just going through this cycle over and over again.

He says he's going insane. He doesn't know what he wants. He's shut himself off from everyone. Says he's going down and doesn't want to drag me down with him. How do you convince someone that you should move in together, sign a 2 year lease, and then break up with them?! Please tell me that this is just temporary (just like the psychic lady told me before this all happened -- LOL)...I'm losing it now....


~* Kristen

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Wed, 09-01-2004 - 2:10pm
Sounds to me like when he had options and freedom - he had no problem "being with you" - heconsidered it a choice of free will and if ever the situation wasn't in his best interest he culd "walk" without a backward glance.

And now that there is money on the line, there is lease in the picture, that there is more expectation of him (most likely) on your part to consider you an equal, to meet your needs, to comingle with family and consider "the future" - he's going wait....stop......I was in this for fun, sex, companionship and no obligation enjoyment.

Now you're introducing what I don't want.....obligation, commitment, responsibilities, loss of options...I'm outta here.

Erin

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Registered: 05-09-2003
Wed, 09-01-2004 - 2:23pm
Kristen,

I know how you feel, and how bad it hurts, but you have to ask yourself... if he wanted to get back together, could you honestly do it? I would be very worried that he'd do this same thing again down the road. It is so painful and hard, but you have to allow time to start healing you. It *will* get better, and you will someday find someone who's much more deserving of your love and companionship.

"Without music, life is a journey through the desert"...