i dont understand him!
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| Mon, 05-30-2005 - 11:16am |
ive recently split up with my boyfriend(of 17months)
we split up because....well i dont really know! at the time i agreed with
him.
we were both distant and he thought it would be for the best so we could
still stay mates!
the break up was clean no fight or argument we cryed kised and hugged.
he keeps on tellin me "its for the best" im not in denial our relationship wasnt on the rocks it was fine! not brill at that spercific point but weve both been under
stress with exams and stuff but i know we culd of got over it!
i still love him and i do speak to him when i see him in uni!
i try focusing on bad points...but there really isnt any!
we got on so well there was a real connection!
i wanna be back with him and last week i told him i miised him and when hes
really ready to start a relationship with with me whether it be as a friend
of girlfriend all he needs to do is let me no and he basically told me i have to mvove on!
this boy is my best friend my world and ive relyed on him for sooooooo much!
my freinds are not good friends and i find it hard to talk to them!
i need help i want him back and i know i should be getting "over him" but i
really love him and i cant!
i see him everyday so hard..he still texts me phones me and he tells me he still loves me!
for the past week ive been havin a laugh with a new group of mates ive been playin it really cool with him and last night he called me round his house cause he wanted to chat!
we talked and talked and we sat on his bed and i kissed him he kissed me bk and we had an hour of passion(no sex)! i smiled at him and he smiled back he told me he loved me etc!
after we setteled down i looked in2 his eyes and we both smiled...to cut a long story short he finaaly said "i hope you didnt get the wrong impression!"
i went mad he knew how i felt what else was i goin to think of course what would you think that we were back to gether rite???
but he was like wo wo i didnt say that!
i was soo angry i dont understand he tells me he missss me he shows he wantd me but hes not back with me!
he tells me that if he went back out with me hed be giving in and hed b dissapointed in himself and finally he told me he needs time!!
its killin me i need to no now!
u may reply with go out on the town etc but its not how i do things pullin ppl i dnt like!
WHAT DO I DO??

I know it's hard having all these emotions at the same time.
THANKS!...the story goes on! haha
Last night i went to this 21st birthday garden party!
He was there with 2girls from his math’s class, I sat down the bottom of this long table with my mate and sat there happily talking and mixing with people!
he came over to ask us if we wanted a drink and i polity refused and carried on my conversation with the person sitting next to me!
he sat there looking very upset we passed each other while going to the kitchen and he told me he felt like I was ignoring him!
I told him that I was trying to concentrate on having a fun time and that i didn’t want to talk about this to him while he is drunk and i walked off!
i carried on having fun while people(including his 2 new best girl buddies) were telling him to cheer up! near the end of the night he was sooo drunk and no1 was lookin after him i went over to see if he was ok and he was completely out of it! i walked him outside where he was sick and he kept on saying “look after me im your friend” i told him that i couldnt so i got his best mate...however when he started to be sick his mate couldn’t handle it so i went out to help i phoned a taxi for him and he went home!
this morning i got a text sayin " your good to me thankyou etc" and a missed call ive taken your advise i hav not replied or contacted him!
last night made me realize he doesn’t want me because not even the alcohol was making him say anything apart from "i don’t no what i want"
so now im leaving him concentrate on my exms and my social life
THANKYOU!
but if you have any more advise of gettin over him PLEASE help!
(Just as I was about to send this he text me saying ive written my feelings down onto a letter what the number of your house so I can send it to you?...what do I do I know he doesn’t wanna be with me so shall I bother textin back but id like to know whats goin on in his head what do I do?)