I give up...

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Registered: 11-04-2004
I give up...
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Thu, 11-04-2004 - 1:37pm
I want to thank you if you're reading this. I am alone in my agony today and I just needed to reach out and see if someone can offer me some positive thoughts. Our third break up happend on Monday. Today I'm three days without sleep and hanging by a thread. I am just not functional. Last night I wrote a poem. It sums it up I guess. I know pain fades. I know I'm going to feel better soon. Today I'm letting myself feel as bad as I can with the hope that tommorow will be a better day....

“that into me”

Heartbreak is losing the girl of your dreams

Johnny’s daughter, Haley’s mother, my woman and lover

Peter says, “Whoa now. Get it together brother…

She’s only perfect for you when she wants to be!”

Yea I know Pete. She’s just not that into me.

“You guys broke up again? How many times now…three?”

She’s really pissed this time “We suffered a tragedy.

It’s not about YOU Joe, UGH! This isn’t working for me!”

T.F. says, “Oh c’mon buddy! A blind man could see…”

You’re right Tommy. She’s just not that into me.

Hey maybe she’ll call or show up tonight…

Make it all right for a while - satisfy some needs…

Jane says, “She feels something hun, just not like Steve”

Tell her to f**k off! She’ll come around, I guarantee!

You’re wrong Jane. She’s just not that into me.

Yeah but things could be different now…

With rededication, a weekend away or a spending spree

Rebecca says, “You think she’ll change? Oh Puh~leeze!

She can’t be bothered. She’ll never meet your needs.”

Oh yeah Reb, I forgot. She’s just not that into me.

I hate that we fight to the death each time

We’re both so headstrong it’s not safe to disagree.

You kept asking, “Aren’t you getting tired of me?

I’m just not ready for the life you seem to need.”

Goodbye Corinna. I concede. You’re just not that into me.

This shatters my illusions of love completely

I’m heartbroken. sleepless, writing bad poetry

Mom says, “When the right one comes dear

You’ll carve her name in a big oak tree”

You’re right Mum. This one’s just not that into me.

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Registered: 04-01-2004
In reply to: joesinme
Fri, 11-05-2004 - 5:23am
I'm really sorry about what happen.i know what its like,i couldn't eat for two days and couldn't sleep for two nights.No matter what i tell myself,i just couldn't get over my girl.But eventually time will heal.It might hurt, but no matter what you do,dont come back to her and put away anything that remind you of her.I'm sure there will be someone else better for you, someone who will love you and appreciate you. YOu may feel like crap right now,but later on you will glad that it happen.Just think of all the moment that she did you wrong and think of how cruel she were to you.This will make it easier for you to get over her.

Hope it help.
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Registered: 11-03-2004
In reply to: joesinme
Fri, 11-05-2004 - 9:51am
Joe, I am so sorry for the pain you are experiencing right now. But you know the deal, she just really isn't THAT into you. Painful to hear, I know, but I too am on day 7 of my devastating, out of nowhere breakup and it totally sucks! I did read that book "he's just not that into you" from cover to cover on Tuesday night and it really gave me some perspective. The only advice I can offer you is to put her out of your mind. Dont think about the great times, dont fantasize about "what could be", NOTHING! That is what I have been doing. Every time he enters my mind (which is pretty constant) I immediately think of somthing else. We all make excuses for the people we love, that dont give us what we deserve. I know, no contact, whatsoever is also the way to go. It's hard, geez I know, but we have to remain strong. I am totally devastated, being it only been a week, but it ended with a fight and this was only the second fight we ever had in a two year relationship. This is a man that I am totally in love with, (never had this much of a connection, even with my ex-husband) anyway, this is a man that I spent almost every single week night with, and every whole weekend for the last two years. And now NOTHING! He hasn't even tried to call or e-mail or text or anything. I know he is stubborn but really now, if he really truly loved me, he would quit being immature and give in. I made the stupid mistake of calling him Saturday (morning after the breakup) when I knew he was at the gym (drove by) and figured I can just say everything I needed to say to him without crying or interuption. Well no return call, then I text messaged him on Sunday, twice! Hello, get a clue, he is just not worth my tears, I guess. Just dealing as best I can, so that is what you need to do. Realize this woman is not worth you love, easy for me to say, I know, but you need to focus on life without her. I am hoping that he does call, cry, plead, dont do this, etc.. like he did the last time after 7 days. And my goal is to HOPEFULLY, I will be strong enough to say, sorry baby, too late, cant deal with the ups and downs, and I deserve respect. Well Joe, I feel like I am rambling on now, but I hope you find strenght.. if you need a friend, or a woman's point of view, you can e-mail me, I feel your pain and sometimes its better to vent to someone who understands, rather that the friends and family I have saying oh, forget him, he's not worth it, oh, theres other guys, oh this, oh that, dont they get it??? Anyway, I will be happy to help you out if I can, if you can do the same for me!

Be strong!

Louise :) weezmezz@aol.com