I HATE the missing him moments!

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Registered: 03-10-2005
I HATE the missing him moments!
Mon, 03-14-2005 - 9:43pm

I am doing really well...onto day 16! But there are still those awful moments when I start to feel bad for HIM and wonder how he is doing and if he is okay--I loved him and I always will despite the fact that he treated me so awful. But I was lying to myself that this was love...and that is why I hate these moments:) I either visit the message board or write myself a note saying all positive things, and both makes the moment pass me by. I will get my closure from within when the time comes, and know I will never have contact with him again--but in doing so I have to look at it moment by moment and not the big picture.

If I can do this, anyone can--seriously. I put this guy on a pedestal and thought no one could EVER compare and that this was the greatest guy ever...hahaha. I know loving myself is far more important than seeking approval from an unhealthy man. I don't regret the last 5+ years, I look at it as a lesson I am now learning...and I think about the love that will come to me when I am ready--a healthy, genuine one because I am taking the time to love myself and resolve my issues...and gain back self-esteem and confidence that is righfully mine!

Stay strong, everyone--breaking up is a part of life and it happens for a reason--take it from me, denying something is wrong will only set you back--over and over.

Thank you all for making this a little bit easier!