I Hate These Weak Moments
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I Hate These Weak Moments
| Sun, 08-12-2007 - 9:55am |
I'm 5 1/2 weeks since the break-up. 12 days N.C. The last N.C. was VERY BAD. Anyway, I'm the person who is having employment problems, also, and was laid off from the third job in 6 months the same day he broke up with me. I'm still unemployed, but I have prospects. I know once I start working again, I will totally over him, because I'm close now....I think. But I've been awake, alone, & too many places on the internet too many hours. So, in my weakened state, it's not hard for me to miss him (which I hate that it still happens at all). I don't think the worst part of it is wanting to contact him at times like this....I think it's the pain & the anger that I feel at still thinking about being tempted to contact him. Does that make sense? I want to be over him....COMPLETELY! I don't want to have to have 'these moments', just because I stayed up too long and I'm tired or because I was alone for too many hours. Why does it still hurt? I, who did not deserve this in the first place, have suffered enough...I think. I don't want to have to post all this stupidity to strangers on a message board, for fear I might e-mail him instead. Thanks, for listening anyway, Tina

Well, shared sorrow is half sorry right? And shared joy is double joy.
It's nice to post on a board like this because we can dole the pain out a bit and when one of us moves on, it gives the rest of us hope. Anyways, the best of us have weak moments, but they pass and you're happy you didn't give in. one more notch on the bedpost.
cheers
Susanna
I know...and the board is a God send. I really just feel better writing on here...AND then I get someone who understands the confusing stuff I wrote and offers me kind words. I lousy bum who dumped you has forgotten you even exsist, much less would ever even say "I'm sorry", and this is the person you gave your unconditional love to and would do anything for, no matter how hard or unpleasant it was. That person is the one who should be concerned and supportive of you. The sad irony, strangers that you've never met; that you have never done anything for, that have nothing to do with the hard times you are going through, are your saviors and they care about you, and want to help.
Obviously I'm up....still...just couldn't sleep, so now I'm ALL EMOTIONAL (as expressed in the prior paragraph). I always feel so uplifted, when anything I write on here, gets a response, and I say Thanks a million. Tina
Tina Marie
This board is a godsend! It helps to share with others that know exactly how you feel. The advice is really great too. I have re-read some of Sandra's Posts over and over. She is right...we just can't see it at times because of the Pain but during those Moments whn we can think with our brains instead of our hearts, all of the good stuff starts sinking in and the next time you start feeling bad, you can hold on to that and pull yourself back out of that funk.
What is that quote: Something about "Some of the most worthwhile things in Life have at first scared me to death!"
The only weak moment is the one where you act on it in a way that hurts you. Similar to the only stupid question is the one not asked.
How bout them apples ;)
Having a moment is human, how you deal with it is what defines you individually. Each moment you power through brings you ever-closer to being over it completely. Bet you didn't know how strong you really are. Now you know.
Good stuff to look forward to, right?
You studs.