I have had enough!
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| Fri, 07-27-2007 - 12:55am |
Maybe someone can help me because Im seriously sick of it all. I met someone two years ago I was convinced would be "the one". He seemed sweet, kind, all the good things we want and need. I had doubts about him (he's 1500 miles away from me, not completely over losing his kids in the divorce) but I really liked him. He pursued me. I liked it until one day when I expressed my concerns and he bolted.
Which, as difficult as it was, would have been fine but he has since then continued to contact me off and on...telling me how much he misses me...yada yada. Moreover, he has made plans to come see me, only to cancel on me (three times). After that, I told him "we're done". Yet, he continued to contact me (text messages, mostly).
So, the latest was a week ago, when he contacted me and told me that he was "tired of ignorning his heart" and wanted more with me...of course, I didnt hear from him for a week after that. No calls to talk to me...just more text messages.
So, last night, I had had enough. It has been two years and we are still playing these mindless games and all Iv gotten is headaches and an ulcer. I kept hoping he would realize how much he wanted me and want to discuss our relationship...but nothing. He never wants to discuss it. So, I finally told him...please no more contacts, I have a bf, which is a lie. I dont.
But, Id rather be alone than go thru this.
Why do I feel so bad?

Hi and welcome to the board ivleena,
You feel bad about his because as annoying and and aimless as his contacts have been, there was still hope. There was hope every single time he made any kind of indication that he might actually act on what he said he felt. Now you have to let that go, you have to let go of the past you had with him, and whatever future you had hoped for. And that sux.
It's going to hurt for a while, it's going to feel worse before it begins to feel better, but eventually, you'll be able to breathe deeply and actually feel relaxed (and hopeful for something else) once again.
Best,