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I just gotta vent...
| Sat, 08-07-2004 - 8:41pm |
I am feeling so damn bitter right now... and mad. My husband is in the garage right now packing his stuff to move out tomorrow. We ended as amicably as possible, but HE walked out on the marriage and me for the second time in six years. I know that anger is a normal part of the grieving process but jeez I didn't realize how bad it gets... I am trying hard to not say a bunch of truly bitchy stuff to him and to maintain my dignity. I am not a child and I have learned that there are no guarantees but it still hurts... bad.
I just gotta get some of this off my chest before I explode... on him. I can only imagine that tomorrow will be a horrible day... I feel like crying now and tomorrow he will be here with his friends helping him... I HATE crying in front of people... but I feel like I have to be here, or I won't get to say goodbye to my two pets that are going with him... and I in some weird way need to see him leqave to believe it's so. Like everyone else, I am losing so very much.
I also won't have a computer at home after tomorrow as he is taking it... so if you read this please think good, strong thoughts for me... I will check back in when I can... tonight I am going out... I can't stay home alone and dwell on this. Jen

Jen