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I just hate tthe way I feel
| Mon, 02-26-2007 - 6:44pm |
I am happy I found this board...because I have felt so alone. I am divorced from husband number 1 and have 2 children with him. I married again 4 years later and separated from him almost a year ago (no kids there). Last August I met someone...also divorce w/ 2kids and we hit it off right away. We have almost everything in common. He does have his little idosyncracies..but who doesnt? Anyway..we have been dating about 6 months. I have to admit that I pretty much did most of the "work" in this relationship..I think I made things too easy for him. Anyway...Valentines' Day came...and he called me that morninng to say "happy V. D" and proceeded to tell me that he didnt believe in Valentines Day and didnt do anything for me. I had sent him a card. I let him know I was hurt and he said he would take me to dinner the next weekend and he was really stupid and really sorry. Well anyway....Wednesday of last week he called me on the phone...and broke things off with me. Said he didnt think we should see each other anymore because he knew he could not give me what I wanted and I should have more...etc, etc. I was crushed. We had made plans on Monday to go to dinner on Saturday and Wed he calls and does that to me. I have felt awful since then...crying...sick..cant sleep, cant eat..I wake up in the morning and I have that moment when you first wake up that you forget you broke up and then it hits you like a ton of bricks.
I dont know..I just feel awful. This morning I get to work and he instant messages me..asking me how I am and how was my race on Saturday ( we are both runners ). I ignored his "how are you" question but answered his other questions simply..without any mention of anything else. It was like he kept thinking me things to ask...like..wasnt it cold, how many runners were there, how did you do, was the course hilly, and on and on.
Why did he contact me? Does he feel guilty? Does he want to be "friends" now? I hate it because its like it gave me a false sense of hope that maybe he missed me...
but I bet I dont hear from him tomorrow...
Nothing makes any sense!
I dont know..I just feel awful. This morning I get to work and he instant messages me..asking me how I am and how was my race on Saturday ( we are both runners ). I ignored his "how are you" question but answered his other questions simply..without any mention of anything else. It was like he kept thinking me things to ask...like..wasnt it cold, how many runners were there, how did you do, was the course hilly, and on and on.
Why did he contact me? Does he feel guilty? Does he want to be "friends" now? I hate it because its like it gave me a false sense of hope that maybe he missed me...
but I bet I dont hear from him tomorrow...
Nothing makes any sense!

Hi blossom and welcome to the board.