I know it's right, but....
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I know it's right, but....
| Fri, 12-21-2007 - 12:17pm |
It STILL hurts.
I'm ready to get off the rollercoaster. Pretty sure I can't do the NC thing just yet. I picked a pretty crappy time to say I'm done, as I am currently add odds with my sister, mom, and best friend (can I just say life has been STRESSFUL?) and now have no boyfriend. The holidays are just around the corner and I just want to sleep through them.

Hey Michelle
Sandra,
I replied earlier, but I guess my post was lost. Anyway, I knew you'd feel that way, hence the "tentative" wave...I feel I've disappointed you. I really hoped to have a different upate :(
And thank you for the offer to visit...makes me feel good. I wish I could run away. Unfortunately, I do have some things to attend to this weekend, not fun but necessary. One of these days we will meet up, but I want it to be when I'm feeling fun and fabulous. I am jealous of your weather. My GF out in Tampa was just telling me how lovely it is and how she was listening to the waterfall on her pool. I HATE Chicago winters. How are the teaching prospects that way? I am having fantasies of relocation.
I'm just so sad and disappointed...please don't let me turn into some bitter cliche...you will be happy to know I got that book you suggested that you said you read often. I ordered it along with B's bday presents (somehow under my denial, I knew). It's still sitting unopened in the living room, but I'm sure I'll be tackling that box soon.
I know I will get past it...I just don't want to experience the lows like I did post-divorce. With this one, we worked so hard....I just feel defeated and tired. I SO want a good, strong relationship. WHEN will it be my turn?
Thank you for listening to me vent and for your support. I need it right now.
Oh, and what IS the deal with drummer boy? Are you official now? Update!!! You sound happy...good for you.
Michelle
Oh no, I'm not disappointed "in" you, I'm disappointed *for* you, major huge difference!!
I dunno, I've had a running streak so far with a few different friends off our other board who came and stayed a wknd with me when they each hit a bit of rocky patch