I know it's right, but....

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Registered: 03-26-2003
I know it's right, but....
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Fri, 12-21-2007 - 12:17pm

It STILL hurts.


I'm ready to get off the rollercoaster. Pretty sure I can't do the NC thing just yet. I picked a pretty crappy time to say I'm done, as I am currently add odds with my sister, mom, and best friend (can I just say life has been STRESSFUL?) and now have no boyfriend. The holidays are just around the corner and I just want to sleep through them.

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Registered: 06-22-2006
Fri, 12-21-2007 - 12:52pm

Hey Michelle

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Fri, 12-21-2007 - 2:31pm

Sandra,


I replied earlier, but I guess my post was lost. Anyway, I knew you'd feel that way, hence the "tentative" wave...I feel I've disappointed you. I really hoped to have a different upate :(


And thank you for the offer to visit...makes me feel good. I wish I could run away. Unfortunately, I do have some things to attend to this weekend, not fun but necessary. One of these days we will meet up, but I want it to be when I'm feeling fun and fabulous. I am jealous of your weather. My GF out in Tampa was just telling me how lovely it is and how she was listening to the waterfall on her pool. I HATE Chicago winters. How are the teaching prospects that way? I am having fantasies of relocation.


I'm just so sad and disappointed...please don't let me turn into some bitter cliche...you will be happy to know I got that book you suggested that you said you read often. I ordered it along with B's bday presents (somehow under my denial, I knew). It's still sitting unopened in the living room, but I'm sure I'll be tackling that box soon.


I know I will get past it...I just don't want to experience the lows like I did post-divorce. With this one, we worked so hard....I just feel defeated and tired. I SO want a good, strong relationship. WHEN will it be my turn?


Thank you for listening to me vent and for your support. I need it right now.


Oh, and what IS the deal with drummer boy? Are you official now? Update!!! You sound happy...good for you.


Michelle

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Registered: 06-22-2006
Fri, 12-21-2007 - 3:16pm

Oh no, I'm not disappointed "in" you, I'm disappointed *for* you, major huge difference!!


I dunno, I've had a running streak so far with a few different friends off our other board who came and stayed a wknd with me when they each hit a bit of rocky patch

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