cuddling with him in bed
talking on our way to work
his text mesages
calling him about something silly
talking before bed
his smell
cuddling with him in bed
his arms around me
him wanting me
being comfortable with him
cuddling with him in bed
being able to take care of him
having a date
and cuddling with him in bed...
things i don't miss--
his yelling
his drinking
the way he got sometimes when he drank
calling me selfish
the unstable feeling i had about our relationship
my uncertainty of the future
constant bickering
working so hard to make it work
feeling like it wasn't getting much better even with all the work
wanting more
the constant anxious, nervous feeling in my stomache
i know i did the right thing..... and as time goes on, it seems to be getting a little easier....
sometimes though, it's just really hard. like in bed at night! just the idea of snuggling up with him and stuff. i know that what i miss are pretty much the superficial things and it was the important stuff that was lacking. it's just so hard. im just missing him right now a lot i guess.... tonight is tough.....
we haven't talked in three weeks tomorrow. :(