I miss her even though she hurt me
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| Sun, 04-29-2007 - 5:11pm |
I was with my ex from 2000-2003 and in that time she told me I was the only one, no other would ever come between us, we would be forever forever. I understand that relationships can change and end, but the way she dumped me seemed cold. She just said It's over. And the vacation we planned she went on with another guy. I freaked out. Perhaps I didn't handle it as mildy as I should, but when you love someone, passion takes over. Woman love passion in the movies. "Why can't I have a guy who passionately loves me?" Bla bla bla. At any rate, when they came back from their vacation, which really wasn't theirs but my vacation with her, they found his car messed up. This new dude she was with? His care was vandalized. I didn't do it. Honest. But she called the cops on me. I told them I didn't do it, I provided a valid aliby, and after I proved everything,they let me go scott free. If the cops believed me why didn't she? I called her to tell her how disappointed I was in her behavior and she called the cops on me for the message I left her on her machine and she charged me with harassment. Well, I was applying for the Police department at the same time. My sister wrote her a letter on my behalf asking her to drop the charges as I was really wanting this job, but she refused. It's bad enough she left me for dead and broke my heart, but now she is going to ruin my chances at my dream career? She never dropped the charges. So the Police department, after they tested me, interviewed me, gave me an agility test(passed), psyche test (passed) gave me a lie detector test, told me they couldn't hire me because of the pending charges. It was a job at 45,0000 a year. At that time I only made 7 dollar an hour. I was crushed. This girl I loved not only broke my heart, devestated my soul, but ruined my career, on purpose. And still, I miss her. What is wrong with me? I truly loved her. In fact, that vacation we planned, where she meant to go with me, but ended up going with the other man, I was going to propose. Yes, I bought her a ring. I am trying to move on, and get it out of my head, but it's like a bad dream. She was so good at pretending to be something she never was. I keep pinching myself and hoping I will wake up. Anyone? Anyone? Help?
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