I need to just let go...
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| Tue, 10-11-2005 - 4:56pm |
hello everyone,
It's been a few weeks since my last post. I know in my last post, I talked about how my exGF, who wanted to get back together with me, had this other male friend come and stay with her for a weekend. Anyways, that weekend didn't go very good for me cause I talked to her every night the week before he came and told her that I wanted her back. She said there really wasn't much she could do to stop him from coming, cause he already bought his plane ticket. I found out this week that since that weekend, she has ended things with him cause she said she wasn't ready for a relationship. I think she's lying to me. For reasons I'll get into later. Last night, I called her to tell her that she still had some more stuff in my apartment and wanted to know when she wanted to meet to pick it up. Well, she was with her mom, shopping for whatever. Anyways, this has always been a problem with our relationship. My exGF grew up taking care of her brother and sister cause her mother was never home. Always working... Anyways, she made sure there was some order in the house when her mom was out of town. Made sure the bills were paid, laundry done, and the house clean. Her family depended on her or took advantage of her. Well, that was back when she was in like in junior high, etc. And it still goes on to this day. Her older sister, who isn't married but lives with the father of her two boys, seems to be the worst. She is always asking or calling for help with the kids cause her man doesn't do anything. But, I have a hard time believing that cause I really think she won't let him do anything for her. I've seen him try to do something nice for her and even the boys, but she just complains that it isn't right or good enough. My exGF would go over there every day before work. She said she just wanted to see her nephews, but it always turned in to taking care of them while their mom got ready for work. OK, not that big a deal. But when it came time for us to do something together, it was always interferred with by her family. It was like they never respected me cause I wanted some alone time with my girlfriend. No phones ringing, no stopping over, etc. I've talked to her about this all the time and nothing changed. Her mom would volunteer her for work trips for weeks on end. Then I would find out about them a week or so later. But when it came time for us to do something, he mom was the first one to call on the trip or the first one to tell her she had something else going on and we couldn't do anything.
Anyways, when I called her last night, there was a comment made by her mom that kind of hurt me. You see, I'm starting to get really skinny cause I don't eat much anymore. Anyways, her mom said that it was because of heart ache and they thought that was funny. I understand it was a joke, but I never did anything like that to deliberately hurt my ex or her mom. He mom has never really respected me. I built this huge ourdoor patio for her, there's a different name for it... A pirogola. Not sure on the spelling, but I built this things and when she had her birthday party and all her friends were there, she told everyone that her son built it. Not me. He did help, but I did practically all the work. Plus, I never go a thank you from her for taking the time to build it cause her son didn't have a clue how to do it.
ANyways, I'm just upset and somewhat angry about all the comments being made. I think it is probably the best to just move on cause she will never let her family go and they will never stop depending on her. I'm not against her family or people that hold family close to them. But when it becomes your life and you sacrifice apart of your own happiness of being with someone or the relationship really suffers, I don't agree with that. Maybe I'm wrong for wanting more from her. I don't know. I just think I would be better off looking for someone else right now. Thanks for listening.

Utah15
Utah15