I saw him for last time today,m
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I saw him for last time today,m
| Thu, 01-18-2007 - 1:15pm |
if you read in another post, I had to go back to lunch with him today cause a man he worked with had been wroking on something for me and it was done. Anyway we sat in my car waiting and I got a few things out I wanted to say. I ofcoarse cried and when I left I gave him a envelope. In it was a very nice short note, just wishing him happiness and a disk to the song ''My Wish'' by Rascal Flatts. I told him that I could have wrote that song myself to him. Anyway as much as I do NOT want this break-up, I am proud of the nice note and tried to end it with some dignity. Although crying like an idiot didn't help. Today feels diffrent then yesterday when I left him. I mean I am very sad and was crying but I can't pin point the feeling I Have.
The thing I have the most problem is,, people leave relationships cause they can't get along, or they fight, or they don't love each other, NONE of that applied to us. So it is very hard leaving someone that you still love and care for and they do the same back! I am lost and sad. And I can't get out of my head all the things we were gona do. It's like the past was nothing, I keep thinking about what were ''WERE'' gona do... why is that?
Thanks for being here you are all i got at this point.
The thing I have the most problem is,, people leave relationships cause they can't get along, or they fight, or they don't love each other, NONE of that applied to us. So it is very hard leaving someone that you still love and care for and they do the same back! I am lost and sad. And I can't get out of my head all the things we were gona do. It's like the past was nothing, I keep thinking about what were ''WERE'' gona do... why is that?
Thanks for being here you are all i got at this point.

everything you're feeling is completely normal, always remember that. it is comforting to realize that you are not alone and that others feel and have felt how you do. i was there not too long ago and i thought i would never get through things. i literally had to take it hour by hour. it is hard to hear but take comfort in the fact that things will get better with time. the best thing you can do for yourself is vent, get it all out, write out your feelings, write letters to him (that you don't send) and make a positive change for yourself.
i can tell you that i have done all of that and it is what has gotten me to where i am today. i am no where near 'over it' after 4 months, but i am moving on with my life and i was able to see him and go home without breaking down in hysteria. that would not have happened a couple of months ago. it's hard when you feel there is no explanation for it, that you were happy and it happened with no reason, but you will come to terms with it as time passes. keep your chin up and keep posting here, it helps!
I know how you feel... I'm right there with you today. I saw C yesterday - and I think it will be the last time for a long time. It was so nice... we really had what I thought was a wonderful relationship and we never fought either. I think maybe we should have. I was listening to Rascall Flatts the other day and the last song we listened to together before we broke up was strangely was My Wish. It just stuck in my head, because I was thinking that it was something I could have written...
And that was NYE, the night before.
My heart goes out to you. It's up and down... I've been up for a few days and most of today but I came back to the board this afternoon because I'm feeling very sad and lonely right now. I don't even know why...
I can realate. Me ex and I broke up. We did not fight etc either and still love each other. I hated breaking up but I had to. Like you said some days are up, some are down. Heck some moments are up and some are down. For us the song Say Goodbye by Chris Brown tells it. We had a rocky road that took its toll.
Here are the lyrics:
"Say Goodbye"
Look we gotta talk
Dang I know
I know it's just
It's just...
Some things I gotta get of my chest alright....
Yeahhhh...
Whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa...
Listen..
Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I gotta gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I gotta gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Do you hear me crying?
Oh, oh, oh
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I gotta gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I gotta gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye
Wow... That's a good song. I'm going to have to hear it. Actually... I was wrong about the song. It was What Hurts the Most... it played on NYE on the New York show. Here are the lyrics... and it is just touching:
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
(Not seeing that loving you)
That’s what I was trying to do