I want to die

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Registered: 03-01-2007
I want to die
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Thu, 03-01-2007 - 8:36am
I know that whatever happend life must go on, But right now i cant think of anything reassons why my life should go one, My parents hates me, My school is sh*t, and love is gone, I moved in Denmark with my mother becouse she is merried with a danish man a couple of years ago, and I dont have any family beside my mother (i hate my steph dad)
And now she hates me becouse i didnt listen to her, she never liked my ex, but this guy mean so much to me, He was my first in evreything, at the begining he speak sh*ts about ym friends taht they party without there GF or BF he said if u love eachother u should always be together, He hates school, but he try everything so that he will end up in thesmae class with me, I lost all my friends when i was with him, becouse i was always with him, and i didnt had time for other, And just for 2 days ago he told me he wants us to party sepretly, and that we are to much together, and so on, i mean it was all his idea to be with me, all the time, i use to complain before, that i wanted to meet my friends, but he always tel im also your friend, i mean im use of seing him everyday and sudenly he change his mine`d? i wasnt even alot to chant with guys before and noe he let me party with other guys? is it just me or my life suckss
Im just really lonely right now, i have no one to talk to honestly i think i will soon going to be crazy, im so depress, i have no one to talk to,, i just need advice, becouse i cant emagen life wihout him,
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Registered: 03-26-2003
In reply to: krossad
Thu, 03-01-2007 - 10:10am

krossad...

PG has a question for you.

Is your MOM the only relative in the area? Don't you have any other friends (or family) who can bring you "peace of mind?"

If you base your entire life and life decisions upon the feelings of other people, you're going to wind up TOTALLY MISERABLE ABOUT EVERYTHING!

And that's called an "emotional prison sentence!"

NOBODY needs this.

Please get some professional help if you have ABSOLUTELY NO FAMILY SUPPORT!

Pianoguy

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Registered: 01-20-2004
In reply to: krossad
Thu, 03-01-2007 - 10:50am

Krossad
I'm so sorry you are going through this. I know right now you feel the world is going to end, and that's okay to feel that way. But just know that it isn't going to end. Several years ago I went through a really bad breakup. I was devastated, and then, by a miracle it seemed, we decided to give it another chance. I was the happiest girl on the planet! I felt all my sadness melt away, and spent more and more time with him. Then out of the blue he decided he didn't love me anymore. Well you can imagine how upset I was. I mean breaking up the first time was bad enough, but having to do it all over again, I felt I could barely get out of bed. I felt so distraught and depressed that I went into counseling. I felt that I couldn't get a handle on things, and my depression was spiraling out of control. And I have plenty of family and friends to help me, but it still wasn't enough. I was just so heartbroken that it was impossible for anyone to help me. So I made a phone call and set up an appointment with a psychologist. I can't even begin to tell you how much it helped me. In my therapy sessions, I talked about everything, even things I didn't realize from my past that were still haunting me. It helped me tremendously. I felt better after going to counseling for a few months, so I felt okay enough to not go anymore. But to be honest, sometimes I consider doing it again, just because it helped to unload my feelings on someone who I knew wouldn't judge me, and wasn't biased in any way. I think maybe you should consider doing the same, because to me it sounds like you have a lot of things making you unhappy right now. TRUST ME, it helps to do this for yourself.

Now, years later, here I am on this message board again because I am going through another painful breakup, not the same guy, but someone I really thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. If there is anything I've learned in previous relationships, it's that being with someone, and being in love with them, does not mean LOSING YOURSELF in the process. Believe me it has taken me years and years to learn this lesson. I used to commit myself so fully to someone that I would stop hanging out with my friends, and stop doing things I enjoyed, just because I wanted to spend as much time as possible with the man in my life. The problem with that is, you lose your identity and your sense of self. So that, if the relationship ends, you feel so incredibly lost. Do you have any hobbies you enjoy doing? Maybe you should get back into them. Make plans to treat yourself to something nice, like getting a pedicure or a massage or something. Now is the time for you to be selfish, and focus on yourself so you can start to heal. Don't forget, if you don't take care of yourself, who will?? You will get through this eventually, maybe not today or tomorrow, but SOMEDAY you will start to feel better. Take care of yourself right now and try to do things that you enjoy.

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Registered: 02-05-2007
In reply to: krossad
Thu, 03-01-2007 - 3:41pm

Hi krossad and welcome to the board.

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Registered: 06-22-2006
In reply to: krossad
Thu, 03-01-2007 - 6:21pm

Hi krossad,


I'm Sandra, one of the leaders of this board and I wanted to give you some hugs and some numbers that I want you to call.

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Registered: 11-29-2006
In reply to: krossad
Fri, 03-02-2007 - 9:46am

Hi krossad,


I'm so glad you have this wonderful community to help you deal with your relationship problems.

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