I was so mad but now I'm so, so sad...
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| Tue, 06-19-2007 - 9:20pm |
I found out my boyfriend of almost a year was cheating on me since we met. He talked to his "ex" constantly and even went to visit her under the pretense that he was visiting his dad. When I found this out (by finding his cell bill which even gives the info of where you were when you made the call--that's how I know he was with her) I was so irate that I didn't care what happened. When we first met he was so quick to get into a relationship with me and wanted me to spend all my time with him. He said he thought I was his soulmate and that he wanted me as his wife. A few months ago we even went to his hometown to meet his entire family. I thought things were going so well and I could see us being together forever. I felt so in love and so happy and I thought he truly loved me.
Well, I broke up with him last weekend after screaming at him on the phone but I didn't tell him that I knew about the cheating. He was mad about something and said that this relationship just stresses him out and I said "fine, then I don't want to be with you, please drop off my stuff tonight." (I wasn't home at the time). Well, he didn't drop my stuff off and instead kept texting me that he loves me and doesn't want to break up. He also called me and told me that he wants me but doesn't even deserve me and he's sorry about everything. I told him we could only give it another chance if he is totally honest with me and he said he has been honest about everything and wants me and only me. He won't admit to cheating!
Now I'm so sad and lonely and all I can think about is how he lied to me. I feel like if I could talk to him and get him to admit what he did then maybe we can work it out. But he's a liar and cheater and if I try to talk to him I'm sure he'll end up just saying stuff that will hurt me and make me feel worse. I want my stuff back but I'm afraid that I'll want him back if I see him. I'm kind of new in this city and only have a couple friends so I'm lonely and feel like a lost a huge part of my life. Any advice about getting through this without taking him back? I don't think I should try to talk to someone who always lies, right? If he admitted it could we reconcile or is it, once a cheater, always a cheater. I just keep thinking about how happy I used to be and now I'm miserable and can't eat or sleep. I hate this. Why are some men so awful?? How can he go on with his life and not feel regret? I'm sure he'll have a new girlfriend that he tricks into being with him in no time!
| Tue, 06-19-2007 - 9:26pm |
