I wrote him an email & I'm so mad now
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I wrote him an email & I'm so mad now
| Sun, 08-26-2007 - 9:23pm |
Ok, so I was so angry this whole weekend about my ex breaking my heart that I typed him an email and ripped him apart and now I regret it. I didn't call or text but I sent the email like a fool. It felt good at the time but I know it wasn't good at all to do. I am so hurt right now that someone could be so selfish and sneaky and cruel to the person who loved them. Me.
I read the Zen of Doing Nothing after I sent the email. That was the best thing I could have read. But now I look like a fool and I'm mad at myself. Do most people make mistakes like this early into a break-up? It's only been 6 days.
I read the Zen of Doing Nothing after I sent the email. That was the best thing I could have read. But now I look like a fool and I'm mad at myself. Do most people make mistakes like this early into a break-up? It's only been 6 days.

After I sent a heartfelt card, I felt so humiliated.
Please do not be so hard on yourself it has only been 6 days. I am going on 6 weeks of N/C and am already feeling better. Best Wishes
I'd hate to think that you or anyone who's felt or acted a bit out of control after something as world-flipping as a breakup would be sitting there beating yourselves up over what's done.
What's done is done.
Read that several times until it sinks in. It's done, it's over, it's a new day ladies (and gentlemen). The beauty of life is that every single day you get a fresh start, a brand new opportunity to do it right. That's it, that's the big secret to letting it go and living in the now.
If it makes anyone feel better, even though I didn't do the whole "losing it" thing right after the breakup, I did y'all one better: I lost it on him, went off and called him most names in the book a full three months after we broke up, it wasn't in a letter, it was over the phone and guess what, no one died from it. Take the lesson that *today* is a new day and that from today forward, now you know you need to do your crazy-lady acts in private, amongst your friends only. I **promise** you you'll all be okay, it'll just take some time and a little new-found restraint ;)
Thou shalt not beat yourselves up over this stuff.
Hi curlygrl30,
Lots of people both men and women, do exactly what you did, early or later in the break up.
laughs, well
If it makes you feel better. Right after our break up and for a couple weeks afterwards, I sent him long rambling ecards and set them all to be delivered in August. so I wrote 16 of them (aug 1-16) before I finally stopped. So we all do stupid things :D
Plus, my ip address got banned from the site after that. *laughs* It's tremendously funny now when I think back to it and nothing I would do over again now.
Susanna
Edited 8/28/2007 11:41 am ET by unicornssong
....."Plus, my ip address got banned from the site after that. *laughs*".....