I'm in denial. Please smack me.
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I'm in denial. Please smack me.
| Mon, 05-14-2007 - 8:11pm |
I've been keeping myself very busy lately, but it still doesn't keep my mind off of him. The funny thing is, I'm not so sad anymore. I have this feeling deep down that we aren't over yet. Isn't it stupid? I haven't seen him, or so much as called or emailed him in three months. I don't feel tempted too, and I don't feel that "withdraw" feeling anymore either. I've changed so much in such a short time since he left. I cut and colored my hair, toned up a little, and I have a bit of a tan. (Thanks to dove lol.) I've started wearing makeup again, and wearing more flattering clothes. Everyone keeps telling me how great I look, and I've never felt so confident. I plan on finishing up my schooling over the summer, and have a feeling that only good things can happen for me after that. And I have a feeling that if he should run into me later, he's going to regret that he ever let me go. I'm not bettering my life for him, I'm tired of being unhappy, so don't get me wrong. Is it foolish for me to think this way?
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| Mon, 05-14-2007 - 8:55pm |
no, ur not in denial. I think these are just phases you go through. when i broke up with my ex of 5.5 years, i thought the exact same way. That one day when i bump into him, he'll realized somthing. But as time passes (it's been almost a year)...i've come to realize myself that that day may or may not come, but even if it did...it wouldn't change how i feel now about him. I am no longer in love with him nor do i feel or have any type of romantic feelings towards him. I think ur doing a great job of loving yourself and pretty soon, if that day comes.....you'll prolly be like me hoping that it will never arrive cause it's just gonna cause drama for you healing life. =)
