I'm a fool...
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| Sun, 12-10-2006 - 8:57pm |
I posted on here last week about my bf and I breaking up. He walked out on me last Sunday night said "FU" and that was that. I didn't talk to him until Friday and after a lot of discussion, we decided to work things out. He came over Saturday and things were great. We talked, we laughed and we laid in each others arms, things couldn't have been better between us. We started messing around a bit sexually and then he just stopped and rolled over. I got up and went to the bathroom and when I got back, I said something like "you aren't very attracted to me anymore are you?". He said that he was but that he wasn't going to keep coming back to this and that it was over. After that, things just got stupid. I was so hurt.
He left my place this morning and I chased him out the door, only to get upset again in the lobby of my building. He walked out to his car and drove away. I called him shortly after, he said he was going to turn around, then we started talking and he said he was turning around again and going home. I called and called like a fool only to be ignored. I called him after he got home and we talked only for him to tell me to "F-off" again and hang up on me. Worst is that I keep calling and I know its wrong. I know I'm just pushing him further away. I know I'm out of control. I'm just so hurt. I can't believe he's being so cold to me.
Last week I felt so numb. I didn't cry or even try to contact him. Now I'm a mess and I can't tell which way is up anymore. I really wanted to work on things, I just wanted him to talk to me. I feel like such a fool.
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You are not a fool and everything you are feeling is normal. Unfortuantely, you can not make him talk to you or discuss things if he does not want to. You have to face the fact that you may not be able to get closer from him, it is something that you are going to have to get for yourself. To start, begin to focus on you and your needs for awhile. Let yourself feel the pain of the breakup and get through it. There really are no short cuts, facing it head on is the best way through it. Rely heavily on friends and family for support especially when you want to call and talk or yell at him. Call a friend instead or post here. I have been where you are and I know how bad it sucks, but it does end, I promise!
hugs,
YG
YG
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I'm thinking that anyone who would dare utter the words "f-off" to me would miraculously fall right off the face of the Earth, as far as