I'm going out of my mind
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| Thu, 05-05-2005 - 10:07pm |
I think I am going out of my mind!
I am feeling really, really down today. I can't stop crying. I just keep thinking about my ex and how he hasn't called in a very long time. I know that everyone keeps telling me that thsi no contact thing is the best for me, but I don't feel that way now. I keep thinking about how he is out there happy as can be moving on with his life, not thinking about me. And I get quite upset that he can do this and I have a hard time getting through simple everyday tasks. Then I think maybe he lost my number and that I should call him and give him it in case he needs to contact me. I just can't understand how it is so easy for him and so hard for me. I try to tell myself that Time will help and that I will get through this but it just sucks being in it right now. I feel so miserable. I can't sleep at night and I can barely do my job. It takes a lot for me to smile a real smile.
Why do break-ups have to be so hard?
Thanks for letting me vent.

nugirl,
(((HUGS)))
welcome to my world! lol
there are days when im normal .. and other times, im absolutely going NUTS!!
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thats ME to the "T"!!
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and oh, look - theres ME again! :)
just scroll through this message board and youll find plent of frantic, heartbroken (yet sometimes a little better) me... ahhh... the glorious adventures of having our heart stomped on :P
so, honestly - i could feed you the same lines that everyone else feeds me, but seeing that im in the same shoes youre in.. i know that really, there isnt anything that can erase the pain or the fact that we're not in their arms right now ...
hence, im not even gonna bother throwing you the whole, "time will heal everything," or "its for the better," or "dont cry over someone who doesnt cry over you," or "theres plenty of fish in the sea," or "he wasnt it" or "just stop thinking about it, keep busy"...blah blah blah - you get the point!
instead - i suggest you vent all that you need, cry if you have to, and shop if you can ;) (haha, thats been my horrible solution! lol)
hope tomorrow's a better day ...
((((((HUGS))))))))
eeksj
Thanks eeksj! (((HUGS))) back at you
I try so hard to stay positive about all this but lately it has been so hard. I hate the ups and down. I wish it was all down and then back up, That way when I have a good day and feel somewhat normal, I know that better days are to come. Instead, I might have a good day and then three or four crappy days. This is just all so overwhelming.
It doesn't help that one of my closest friends is on a major man hunt and will settle for about anything that hits on her and tells me just to get out there. I just want to curl up in a ball and not go out and all she wants to do is find a date.
I have read your other posts. Many times!!! I can relate to everything you say too. As for your medication question...I think you have to judge for yourself whether or not that is the route to go. Personally, I would rather talk to someone than take a pill but I know that medication has helped some people out tremendously. Ask your doctor if they can recommend someone that can see you sooner rather than later.
Thinking of all you out there going through the same thing as me. I am thankful for all your support. I know it gets easier at some point. Right now, it just hurts so bad.