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im heartbroken please help
| Sun, 02-19-2006 - 12:57am |
Hi everyone Im here once AGAIN. I need your words, i need strenght.
Heres the story:
1 1/2 years ago i met this guy that changed my life. Lets say he has been my "first love". I met him at age 17 and i will be 19 soon. Ok the thing is that we were together for 6 months then he decided to break up with me. He told me that he was confused and that i was a wonderful person and that i deserved someone better than him. It was the worst feeling I had ever been through. So i came here and alot of you helped me. One month later he called me and asked me if he can pick me up. I was so excited, so in loved, that i said yes. He came for me and he told me that he misses me so much and that he loves me and to forgive him and if i wanted to try it again.Then he told me that breaking up with me was the biggest mistake he has made in his life. So i said yes. Since then i was with him for 1 more year until three days ago, he started to tell me that he needed time. He said that he was confused, that it had nothing to do with me. That i was "perfect" but that first he needed to learn to love himself. I asked him what he felt for me and he told me that he admired me, in spanish he had "cariño" for me. Hearing this broke my heart. Then he told me to forgive him and i started crying and i just hunged up the phone. There were times when he would make me cry because he would cancel our plans once in a while. Most of the time i was at his house, rarely would he come to mine. But then i was really happy with him. I would get along so well with his family and he would get along with mine. My friends tell me that sooner or later he will call me but i dont want to take him back because im afraid of him doing the same thing. I really need some advice here. Im just so used to him. He was part of my lifeeeeeee. This guy was "my first one" and only one. He is the same. We both were virgins and both gave evrything to each other. It is just so hard to even think of a future without him.
Edited 2/19/2006 1:03 am ET by swtgurl2005
Heres the story:
1 1/2 years ago i met this guy that changed my life. Lets say he has been my "first love". I met him at age 17 and i will be 19 soon. Ok the thing is that we were together for 6 months then he decided to break up with me. He told me that he was confused and that i was a wonderful person and that i deserved someone better than him. It was the worst feeling I had ever been through. So i came here and alot of you helped me. One month later he called me and asked me if he can pick me up. I was so excited, so in loved, that i said yes. He came for me and he told me that he misses me so much and that he loves me and to forgive him and if i wanted to try it again.Then he told me that breaking up with me was the biggest mistake he has made in his life. So i said yes. Since then i was with him for 1 more year until three days ago, he started to tell me that he needed time. He said that he was confused, that it had nothing to do with me. That i was "perfect" but that first he needed to learn to love himself. I asked him what he felt for me and he told me that he admired me, in spanish he had "cariño" for me. Hearing this broke my heart. Then he told me to forgive him and i started crying and i just hunged up the phone. There were times when he would make me cry because he would cancel our plans once in a while. Most of the time i was at his house, rarely would he come to mine. But then i was really happy with him. I would get along so well with his family and he would get along with mine. My friends tell me that sooner or later he will call me but i dont want to take him back because im afraid of him doing the same thing. I really need some advice here. Im just so used to him. He was part of my lifeeeeeee. This guy was "my first one" and only one. He is the same. We both were virgins and both gave evrything to each other. It is just so hard to even think of a future without him.
Edited 2/19/2006 1:03 am ET by swtgurl2005

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swtgurl2005....
Pianoguy thinks you need to be honest with yourself and ask the following question:
"IS MY FIRST LOVE GOING TO BE MY ONLY LOVE?"
Knowing how irradical his behavior has been (twice), I think you already know the answer?
Pianoguy
Hi pianoguy:
I know that he may not be my "only" love but so far he has. I just can't think of the idea of falling in love with someone else. I just always thought he was the one. I dont know what to do. I feel so empty. sometimes i just feel like picking up the phone and telling him how much i love him, but i dont know if that would help. This is so hard, i really need suport, i need advice, i need words that will help me feel better. I find it impossible to live without him.
Hi swtgurl,
I know you're hurting right now, but you have to trust me and others on this board, time will make things better. I am on Day 11 (?) of no contact/my last email to him and I have to say, things are slightly more sane. ;) Everyone on here said it gets better in time, you have to trust that... and it does. I was crying my eyes out every day, on my lunch hour, crying myself to sleep every night and somehow that eventually stops. I can't tell you when or how, but it will. And you will have bad days and ok days. There's no timetable for when you will feel better or accept you *can* live without him.
And the 'no contact' rule is the only rule you can truly live by to get thru this. It is the hardest thing to do when all you want to do is say hi, see if they're hurting too, but you can't.
I've found reading other people's posts on here has helped me so much. Just hang in there and post on here if you need to vent.
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