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| Sat, 09-18-2004 - 1:51am |
The part I hate the most is waking up. I hate it when I wake up and I realize we're no longer together. Oh man does that hurt.
We broke up on Sunday and it still hurts a lot. Even though we were together for less than three months we had already talked about getting married and having children. He wanted to go ring shopping a few weeks ago, but I told him I wasn't ready to get engaged. I barely knew him. We had met online and I just had a funny feeling about him. I still don't quite know what hit me.
It's just amazing how unpredictable these feelings are. I had been feeling ok all week. I cried a little every day but I was basically ok. Tonight, I feel like I'm going to explode with sadness. I think the main difference is that every night since we broke up I've been sleeping at a friend's house. Tonight I'm alone, and boy do I hate it. I think I'm going to have to do the friend thing a while longer because I really can't stand being alone. My whole body feels alone. I feel like I've been left with every pore of my being ... which is strange because I'm the one who did the leaving.
| Sat, 09-18-2004 - 11:33pm |

