I'm so glad all of you are here ...

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Registered: 03-26-2003
I'm so glad all of you are here ...
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Sat, 09-18-2004 - 1:51am
I'd be lost without this group. It's nearly 2 a.m. and I can't go to sleep. It's not that I'm not sleepy, I'm overtired if anything. I miss my ex. This is the first night I've been alone in a long, long time. Well, ok, since sometime in July. Still. It's hard to just go to sleep. I think I may actually stay up all night because I'm afraid to go to sleep.

The part I hate the most is waking up. I hate it when I wake up and I realize we're no longer together. Oh man does that hurt.

We broke up on Sunday and it still hurts a lot. Even though we were together for less than three months we had already talked about getting married and having children. He wanted to go ring shopping a few weeks ago, but I told him I wasn't ready to get engaged. I barely knew him. We had met online and I just had a funny feeling about him. I still don't quite know what hit me.

It's just amazing how unpredictable these feelings are. I had been feeling ok all week. I cried a little every day but I was basically ok. Tonight, I feel like I'm going to explode with sadness. I think the main difference is that every night since we broke up I've been sleeping at a friend's house. Tonight I'm alone, and boy do I hate it. I think I'm going to have to do the friend thing a while longer because I really can't stand being alone. My whole body feels alone. I feel like I've been left with every pore of my being ... which is strange because I'm the one who did the leaving.

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Registered: 01-30-2004
Sat, 09-18-2004 - 11:33pm
(((Hugs))) I know it's hard sweetie but you'll get through this and we're here to help!! It doesn't matter if your the breaker or the breakee....break-ups still hurt and there is no easy way to make the pain go away....you just have to ride it out....and I know that sucks. Just try and stay busy and before you know it.....you won't feel that pain anymore!! Good luck and post if you need to!!
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