I'm SO glad the holidays are nearly over
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| Sun, 01-01-2006 - 1:56pm |
...so I can stop having this foolish hope that my ex will grow a heart and have enough compassion for me to apologize for disappearing without a word after being together for a year and a half so I can move on.
But of course any man who would do such a thing isn't likely to feel bad about it or have compassion for me, is he?
It's been 7 weeks and 2 days since we last spoke and I just want to be *done* with feeling this way. Every time I go through a breakup, I'm reminded of how awful it is that you have to go *through* the awful feelings to get to the other side...there is no fast-forwarding. "The only way out is through". I just want it to be 3-4 months from now when I'm feeling better...and I resent the fact that I have to feel that way about precious time when life is short.
Anyway, I hope all of you are doing ok...I feel like I just have to get through today and then it will get a *little* easier because the sentimentality that surrounds the holidays will be over.
Sheri

Amen, sister! Even when we have been here before and understand that getting over a disappointing relationship takes some time, we still have that feeling of wanting the hurt, confusing feelings to be over fast. But I totally agree with you that it feels like we are wishing away time in our life and that's not a good thing. We do need to enjoy each day. We had unseasonably warm weather today and even though it made my run hot and I had to come in earlier than I wanted I am grateful for the the amazing warmth of the sun on my body that I felt today. Each day is a blessing we have to remind ourselves to find and savor those blessing no matter how big or small they are. I want to be over my ex so bad, but I still have that annoying feeling that if he just would show up on my doorstep....arghahlhf I've started to do the raspberry face with my tongue whenever a thought of my ex creeps in my head. It helps a little bit and thankfully it makes me laught sometimes too. Hang in there we are all here for you.
Tina
I agree that the holidays being over is a huge relief. I've had a lot of dreams lately about my ex, and the rebound guy after my ex. It's made me mad that I am trying so hard to erase them from my mind while I am awake, and yet they are invading my sleep.
Sheri, I agree that the holidays contribute to false expectations, and makes the disappointment tougher. Hang in there - you've come this far, and you know you're on the right road.
Tina, You're right, we all do have things to be thankful for, and we need to enjoy the people who are around us. You need to get to a certain point in healing to see that, but once you do, it's so helpful.
Happy New Year!
Yeah, the holidays were a constant reminder to me this year.....last year we were together, took a trip to Newport, RI for a few days between Christmas & New Years....ate at a lovely Thai restaurant and had champagne on NYE....
It's been 3 months of NC for me and overall I'm ok, but I still have times that I cry. I don't want him back but I still miss him. I just want it to go away. It seems so unfair to still care this much.
We can all "hang in there" Together I suppose
Hi Sheri,
Just wanted to say hi to you since I used to live in Seattle. I know exactly what you mean cuz I'm going through a "breakup" of my own right now. And I was just thinking during lunch today when the feelings crept up and blind-sided me, "here we go again" and how I wish I could speed up the healing process.
You sound like you're doing great. And yes...thank goodness the holidays are over so that those of us who aren't part of a couple don't have to be reminded that it feels like just about everyone else is part of a couple.
Here's to happier days coming up soon.
omickey