I know you do! I'm in the same boat with ya! I miss him so much it hurts physically. It hurts to the point that it feels like it's never going to go away. It will get better! I promise! You will wake up one day and realize that you don't hurt anymore. Hang in there!
I have responded to your posts, and you to mine. I had a date tonight and I was kinda close to his side of town. I drove over to the guy's house, so when I left, I pulled in a gas station by the freeway exit. I text him (broke the NC rule-AGAIN!! Even though, it really isn't an issue, because he won't give it any thought and just delete it-I feel pretty sure of that), but I only said, "I'm at Lake Mead & 95. I am having to force myself not to head north." I didn't tell him why I was near his side of town, or anything else. I was three exits from where he lives if I had headed north. I was 18 miles from my exit, going south. It's been 3 1/2 weeks for me. My biggest issue (realizing it more so after having a date), is how I LOVED ALL PHYSICAL CONTACT with him, and on my date, I didn't even want this guy to touch me. I feel like I'm never going to want any other guy to touch me. I'm not crying or hurting ALL the time, but I'm missing the intimacy and feeling I'm going to live the rest of my life without it, because he ruined it for all guys that come after him. I guess that goes away too, but I can't even think that far ahead.
I'm not trying to upset you, but the pain will get less, and then you'll have other screwed up disfunctions, like "not wanting to be touched by any other guy". Damn, how many phases are there to get over these damn bastards? This is just not fair. He's never had to suffer...he's living happily ever after with the 'perfect' girl, and I didn't do any 'crazy ex-girlfriend' stuff, so he got off scott free. And he's the son-of-a-bitch, who used me. I worshipped the ground he walked on. Shouldn't the bad person be the one who is punshished? See, that's why "love" is a FOUR LETTER WORD.
Your going to be sad for awhile, because your pain is still fresh. But, it will go away, I promise, you just need time, and time is not on your side right now. Take it slow and one day at at time, and watch, you will see, the light at the end of the tunnel. It's dark now, but I promise, you will see light again, and learn to love another man, like you loved your ex....I feel your pain, I was there, 3 years ago, so I know how you feel and what your going through. It's hard and very tough, and it's a life altering experience. But at the end of it, you will find out all the reasons why you went thru it, and what valuable lessons you learned that will propel you to be different woman, and prepare you for the man of your dreams.
wow :( i cant even imagine someone else touching me either...not only can i not imagine it...I DONT WANT IT :( i only want him...its been 2.5 weeks, and its not any easier then it was when it just happend. i miss him sooooo much :( my god my god my godddddd!!! :(
when will this day come :(? i cant imagine waking up and not hurting anymore...i really cant :( i miss him so much...and to know he doesnt miss me, or love me, or want to be with me anymore...makes it so much worse :(
I can't tell you that it gets any better anytime soon. My Ex and I broke up on June 4 and I am still unbelievably Miserableeeee and think about him everyday. I can't bring myself to throw out any of the gifts he gave me over the past year and a half and I took the picture of him out of my wallet but only moved it into the glove compartment. I am hoping I will be able to get over him sometime this month but it's my birthday on Friday so it isn't looking to great.
Thanks for the reply. My problem is that it is still very very fresh. It's been about 5 days now. He told me he need some space and moved out of my house to go stay at a friends. He left some of his stuff so looking at it just kills me. I cant stay home at night because sitting on the couch watching our shows alone kills me. Everything is just as he left it like a glass or stuff he left on the night stand. I just cant bring myself to move it. He told me on Sunday that he needed some space and that we were going to talk and that he would come see me this week before I went out of town (I go out of town this weekend). He called a really good guy friend of mine when he left and told him what had happend, that he was worried about me and for him to check in on me. He also told my friend that we were not done, that he just needed some space and that he wanted me if I would have him. I just can't believe he hasen't at least sent a "I miss you" text or something to let me know he is ok or that he is missing me. The silence is killing me and the longer it is the more it makes me think that this isn't just a break, that it really is over. This hurst sooo bad!
i think ill be on the same boat as you on my bday, except mine is in march hehe :) im sorry that you have to feel like this on your bday, my first breakup with another guy 3 yrs ago, happend 2 days before my birthday. so i know....its terrible :( just wish all of us would get over it and move on...whats the point of us all being soooheartbroken, and miserable and sad...and well basically, wasting our lives away in bed with tears...WHEN OUR GUYS OBVIOUSLY ARENT??? ( why cant i listen to my own advice?! )
The man of your dreams, will be a man who WANTS to be with you. Someone who Won't break your heart. and if he is in fact the man of your dreams, he'll be back.
BREATHE. Trust me when I say it will get better. My break up was 15 months ago. I was with my ex for 5 years. First love, first everything. Guess what? I'm doing GREAT!
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I have responded to your posts, and you to mine. I had a date tonight and I was kinda close to his side of town. I drove over to the guy's house, so when I left, I pulled in a gas station by the freeway exit. I text him (broke the NC rule-AGAIN!! Even though, it really isn't an issue, because he won't give it any thought and just delete it-I feel pretty sure of that), but I only said, "I'm at Lake Mead & 95. I am having to force myself not to head north." I didn't tell him why I was near his side of town, or anything else. I was three exits from where he lives if I had headed north. I was 18 miles from my exit, going south. It's been 3 1/2 weeks for me. My biggest issue (realizing it more so after having a date), is how I LOVED ALL PHYSICAL CONTACT with him, and on my date, I didn't even want this guy to touch me. I feel like I'm never going to want any other guy to touch me. I'm not crying or hurting ALL the time, but I'm missing the intimacy and feeling I'm going to live the rest of my life without it, because he ruined it for all guys that come after him. I guess that goes away too, but I can't even think that far ahead.
I'm not trying to upset you, but the pain will get less, and then you'll have other screwed up disfunctions, like "not wanting to be touched by any other guy". Damn, how many phases are there to get over these damn bastards? This is just not fair. He's never had to suffer...he's living happily ever after with the 'perfect' girl, and I didn't do any 'crazy ex-girlfriend' stuff, so he got off scott free. And he's the son-of-a-bitch, who used me. I worshipped the ground he walked on. Shouldn't the bad person be the one who is punshished? See, that's why "love" is a FOUR LETTER WORD.
Tina Marie
I can't tell you that it gets any better anytime soon. My Ex and I broke up on June 4 and I am still unbelievably Miserableeeee and think about him everyday. I can't bring myself to throw out any of the gifts he gave me over the past year and a half and I took the picture of him out of my wallet but only moved it into the glove compartment. I am hoping I will be able to get over him sometime this month but it's my birthday on Friday so it isn't looking to great.
Good luck.
Meg
im sorry that you have to feel like this on your bday, my first breakup with another guy 3 yrs ago, happend 2 days before my birthday. so i know....its terrible :( just wish all of us would get over it and move on...whats the point of us all being soooheartbroken, and miserable and sad...and well basically, wasting our lives away in bed with tears...WHEN OUR GUYS OBVIOUSLY ARENT??? ( why cant i listen to my own advice?! )
You said, "What if he was the man of my dreams?"
The man of your dreams, will be a man who WANTS to be with you. Someone who Won't break your heart. and if he is in fact the man of your dreams, he'll be back.
BREATHE. Trust me when I say it will get better. My break up was 15 months ago. I was with my ex for 5 years. First love, first everything. Guess what? I'm doing GREAT!
You'll be fine.
~Amber
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