It was my fault, but i cant get over him
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It was my fault, but i cant get over him
| Wed, 08-10-2005 - 4:55pm |
My ex and I dated for a bit over a year. He was in the military and he was in deployment for 7 months during our relationship, and we stayed close. But during that time I was cheating on him. It wasn't that I didn't love him, I just didn't have enough willpower to control myself. Everytime I had sex, I just wanted to stop, but there would always be a next time. 2 weeks before he comes home he calls my cell while I'm partying at a club and finds out about everything. I was in love with him, and he was the first man to ever make me feel good about myself, and he treated me with respect. I've tried not whining or complaning but I know it's my fault that the relationship came apart, but I can't get over him. It's been nearly a month and I'm still crying long nights over him. Last night we talked, it was the first time since we broke up and i find out he's getting back with his ex, and I'm just feelings so down. I just wanna forget about him.

Not sure there is much to say that is going to be very nice or encouraging. Are you hurt because you broke his heart?? Or you just miss him and don't want to be alone since he broke it off when you got caught? There is a big difference. If you love him, let him go and be happy with someone who hopefully will not ever cheat on him. And you could learn from your mistakes and learn to be faithful. If you keep on clubbing and drinking and hanging out with the wrong crowd, the influences can be overwhelming, I know because I did the same things. Find your will power and search your soul to become the woman that you would want a good man to fall in love with. Own up to your mistakes, forgive yourself and change the behavior. What you did and have done in the past doesn't make you who you are. You can move past this and find love and be loved but you should work on what kind of a girlfriend and woman you want to be.
good luck,
Grace