its been 2 months....I'm slowly healing
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its been 2 months....I'm slowly healing
| Mon, 07-25-2005 - 1:34pm |
So, its been 2 months since I've heard from him. We dated 4 months and it was great. he was sweet, funny, thoughtful, handsome, and sexy. He made me feel special. So......what happened? Dont know. He dissapeared! No text, no email, no phone call. Mutual friends of ours tell me that he really liked me but that he didnt want a relationship right now and he just didnt have the courage to tell me.I know he had just finished college and has a good job now........I know he wanted to be able to just enjoy his life...I thought I was gonna be part of that. I have felt angry, sad, hurt, depressed, tired, frsustated, confused. I hate him one day and love him the next! I called him twice bout a month ago and he didnt answer, I also text messaged him at that time twice and he didnt respond. About a week ago, I textd him saying that I missed our time.......I know, it was stupid..............he didnt respond.I'm a senior now in nursing school...........he just finished in May.......so I am doing well. I'm making good grades. I'm still the girl I was when he met me and while I dated him. I still am me so I ask, what did I do, why wasnt I good enough..........blah,blah, and I know it isnt me! But sometimes I feel like it is. Like it was all a lie and an act and he didnt really care you know? I'm taking care of myself...........exercise, eating well, hair, nails etc................sleeping, movies, shopping, girlfirends but he still pops in my mind sometimes. It doesnt hurt as bad as it did and I dont think of him as much but I still miss him. I'm still hurt..........I just needed to get my thoughts out..............sometimes I just feel like an emotional rollercoaster. Any advice is welcome........................There is a tiny part of me that hopes he'll call but I know that wont erase the past two months and to be honest even if he did call............it wouldnt make me want him back. Guys...........girls.............help me ou! Share your stories and advice.............I really dont know why he did this. How can you like someone and then just ...............ignore them? Dont know.
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| Mon, 07-25-2005 - 2:51pm |
Aw, I'm sorry I can't give you any advice because it seems like you're doing everything right. He probably really just wants to be single and see what life is like outside of college. The one thing I can say though, please PLEASE stop calling and texting him. Not for him, but for you. Erase his numbers from your phone if you must (I did and we were together 3 years!) but each time you text or call you get a false hope that it will change things. It won't, and you just end of feeling crummy and looking desperate, and with mutual friends, you really don't want to appear desperate. Feel whatever you feel on the inside, but on the outside show everyone how much you DONT need him. Feel better!
| Mon, 07-25-2005 - 11:28pm |
I know it hurts to be dumped like this....he at least should have the courage to break up with you instead of just stopping contact....he owes you that much...it sounds to me like he's a coward.
