Its not getting any better...
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Its not getting any better...
| Fri, 12-17-2004 - 3:57pm |
I have been on here before and won't tell my entire story but here's a little summary. I was with my bf for a year and in April I started questioning my feelings (I think because of stress and being around him way too much)...so I broke it off saying I need to figure this out. We stayed in contact throughout the summer and even went out sometimes. So I started feeling a deep connection I had never felt before right before school (in late Aug. I wasn't sure how to tell him so we just kept talking. Then just as I thought we would be getting back to our relationship he tells me that he's been with someone since Seot. Anyways I have not been taking this very good. At first we talked face to face about some things which I thought would be a good way to get out feelings but it made me feel worse. Anyways we got together one night to talk and it led to other things...but right after he told me it felt wrong so that means it isn't meant to be ...despite the entire fact that he cheated on the gf. Anyways I know I feel rambling but the last time I talked to him had to have been around mid Nov. and people say NC is better but I seriously am not feeling better. I am feeling like everything is my fault and I lost the best thing I ever had --my relationship history is crappy. He was so in love with me...I love him so much.. How am I supposed to move on? I am the saddest thing you could probably see right now and the one thing that runs through my mind is how happy he probably is. Nothing is working for me and time isn't helping!!!

That's because you haven't given NC enough time. It's only been a month since you started NC, is that correct? And your r'ship lasted for over a year? So you'll need a good six months of no contact before you are over him, most likely.
Also, it takes *3* things to get over someone: time, no contact and acceptance that it's over and that the two of you aren't right for each other. It sounds like you might need to focus on acceptance, if you're still feeling that he's the "best thing you ever had".
Sheri