It's so hard.. I can't let go...

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Registered: 05-30-2005
It's so hard.. I can't let go...
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Mon, 05-30-2005 - 9:40pm
It's so hard. I am in tears right now, I am so confused and I don't know what to do.
Here's my story...
I've liked this guy for about 5 months now, But he recently asked me out about two weeks ago... I was so happy. Everything was perfect. I liked him SOOO much, So anyway, We would hang out together on weekends and I'd stay with him after school ended and stuff, We would always hold hands but I had never kissed him except a little corner kiss which was barely ANTYHING. We went to the beach on thursday by ourselves, And we had never been alone together, usually our best bud would be there too but he bailed on us so we just wne tby ourselves. I was kinda nervous at first, only because I liked him so much and I didnt want to spoil things. But anyway, we went afterschool and sat down on a bench. He wrapped his arms around me and you could totally tell he wanted to kiss me.. So it's not like I didnt WANT to kiss him it was just I wasnt expecting him to practically lick my face off. Anyway, We walked back to where I was gonna get picked up and all was well. Prior to this he would always say, "Luv ya!" and make sure he said, "Sleep well" if I was talking to him at night. No doubt about it. I thought he really cared about me, HE would always be reeeally nice to me and make sure he said 'hi' and stuff. But then... Afterwords I was having doubts about kissing him. I guess I thought he moved too fast, I mean, we had been only going out for two weeks and hadnt even kissed before. So.. I told him over e-mail that I didn't mind cuddling him and holding hands and little kisses, and I told him that I specifically STILL LIKED HIM I just didnt want to kiss like that. Not my thing, PLus it was my first kiss too. Then he was like, "Oh.. Okay, Totally understandable. I TOTALLY understand" and he seemed really okay about it. Then.. He stopped saying "Luv ya" and When he would have to go (this is over MSN by the way) he would just say, "Gotta go" and then log off right away. He has been not so friendly with me anymore and doesnt even care what I do or where I am. And you would know how much this hurts if you like a guy so much. We had a little issue with me and our bud who is always with us. They were playing this dumb game with me, asking me the same questions at the same time and answering with the same answer and stuff. He would get jealous when I was with my guy friend, which is his best friend. And he would accuse me of liking him and stuff. Anyway, Today at school he never even stayed with me or said by or nothing. He has treated me so badly these past couple days. Basically ever since I told him I didnt want to kiss like that.. Does he still like me? Or does he not like me anymore because I didnt want to kiss like that? He's DEFINITLY not the same as before and this hurts so much because everything was so perfect before. I am so confused whether to give up on him and try to forget and get over him.. Which is what I have been crying about. Or should I ask him whats going on? Or just hope everything will turn out? I am so confused. Please help me.
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Registered: 02-19-2004
Mon, 05-30-2005 - 9:59pm

"He has treated me so badly these past couple days. Basically ever since I told him I didnt want to kiss like that.. Does he still like me?

let me ask you... do you think guys who like you should treat you badly to show that they do like you?

or do you think that boys who like you should be nice to you and act as such?

futher...

do you really think that someone saying "love ya!" via an internet connection really loves you or do you think it's just a figure of speech?