I've been lurking. Just need to ramble.
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I've been lurking. Just need to ramble.
| Mon, 03-19-2007 - 10:03pm |
Oh, man. Where do I start? Just so many things running through my mind right now. My bf ended things with me two months ago, and it's still fresh in my mind. I'm over the denial part (You know, thinking everything is just a big misunderstanding, he'll want to get back together, he DOES love me, he just doesn't realize it right now..ect. I'm sure most of you know what I mean.) I've finally accepted that it's over, and I need to move on with my life. But even though I've accepted it's over, I'm scared to death. I'm scared I'll never find love again. I'm scared that I'll never love anyone else as much as I love him. To me, he's the only man alive right now. I'm trying so hard to keep busy. Any book or movie, there's always something that reminds me of him. I'll go for a walk, go to the mall, I always see a man that resembles him. I know that my feelings for him would go away gradually if I don't look back. I don't even try to look back, but all of these things that remind me of him, and memories keep popping into my head. It's like chinese water torture. Right now, I feel like I'm always going to have this hole in my heart, and I'll never find anything to fill it.
Well, thanks for letting me vent a little:) I'm going to read some other posts now to get off the pity pot, and remind myself, I'm not the only person in this world who is suffering. We are going to be okay, aren't we?:)
Well, thanks for letting me vent a little:) I'm going to read some other posts now to get off the pity pot, and remind myself, I'm not the only person in this world who is suffering. We are going to be okay, aren't we?:)

Yeah we're going to be OK. We're going to find someone else to love. We're going to stop crying. It will get better. Millions of people everyday go through what we're going through and eventually get over it. It doesn't make us feel any better to know that, but it's true.
So sorry you found us, but we'll all be happy to pass you a kleenex when you need it.
So you past the denial, anger and bargaining stages already and, perhaps, you're in the stage of depression right now. You miss him terribly and feel sad. You say you "see" him everywhere and you think that there is nobody else in your future. After this stage comes the acceptance stage, where you've accepted that "it's over" and that you need to move on. Your feelings of sadness will be less and less.
Yes, you'll be OK. It'll take time, but you'll get over him. Get busy and take care of yourself, you ARE the most important thing in this moment.
Hi alittleafraid and welcome to the board.
Everything you feel is normal, really it is. You will get through this a little at a time. It's all about processing the grief and moving forward.