I just wanted to let you know that I know how you feel...your questions at the end of your post are the same ones ask myself.
I wish I had advice, but I'll leave that to some others. Just know you are not alone. We all have to find our way. As utterly painful as that sometimes feels.
Welcome to the board celestialpulse,
Everything you feel is normal. And you will be normal again.
I just wanted to let you know that I know how you feel...your questions at the end of your post are the same ones ask myself.
I wish I had advice, but I'll leave that to some others. Just know you are not alone. We all have to find our way. As utterly painful as that sometimes feels.