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just broken up
| Sat, 09-03-2005 - 6:43pm |
Well, we had a fight and we talked and he doesn't want to do it anymore. I am going to vent so you don't have to read it if you don't want to. A little background on the whole thing. I moved last month. Before I left he broke up with me because he thought it wasn't going to work. Then he changed his mind. Well, we also had our far share of fights. It usually happened when we were out at night and drinking. He is sitll friends with his exgirlfriend and talks to her. He also texted girls late at night and would lie about it. So after drinking something would snap in me and I would get pissed at him and bring everything up. This happened at least once a month. Last night it happened. He told me that his exgirlfriend called and that was that. I don't even remember what I said. He slept on the couch last night and we talked this morning. He told me that he couldn't do it anymore. I told him that it wouldn't happen again, I would change. He said that is what I said last time. He didn't believe me. There is nothing I could have said to him. His mind was set. He left. i called him and begged him to turn around. This is our 5th time breaking up. It always made me sick when people would do this. I know that it is for the best, but it hurts. It hurts a lot. The few friends that I have made are great. But it will be hard not talking to him. He was my world. I love him and I messed it all up. I hate that I got mad, I don't know why I do it. He said that people were laughing at us in the resturant, but I don't remember or care. I can't believe that this happen.
Thanks for letting me vent
Megan
Thanks for letting me vent
Megan

Oh Megan, I too understand.
I just split from my boyfried (i am now only on Day 2 !) and am confused and hurt. I guess I had a similar situation, in that every time we fought, he would pack a bag and leave, and say it was over and he would be back the next day to pick up the rest of his stuff (It was my house from before we had even met). The 3rd time was it, I knew it had to be......I cannot imagine you going through this 5 times! You need to set a limit if he comes back about how many more times this can happen......or, preferably, have a million loud gut-wrenching cries, list everything you disliked about him, and remember what a fantastic person you are and time will heal. I wish I could tell you when, believe me, I wish I knew when I would stop this roller coaster.....Big hugs and all the best!