just ended an long distance relationship

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Registered: 12-05-2004
just ended an long distance relationship
Sat, 09-03-2005 - 6:23pm
Well, we had a fight and we talked and he doesn't want to do it anymore. I am going to vent so you don't have to read it if you don't want to. A little background on the whole thing. I moved last month. Before I left he broke up with me because he thought it wasn't going to work. Then he changed his mind. Well, we also had our far share of fights. It usually happened when we were out at night and drinking. He is sitll friends with his exgirlfriend and talks to her. He also texted girls late at night and would lie about it. So after drinking something would snap in me and I would get pissed at him and bring everything up. This happened at least once a month. Last night it happened. He told me that his exgirlfriend called and that was that. I don't even remember what I said. He slept on the couch last night and we talked this morning. He told me that he couldn't do it anymore. I told him that it wouldn't happen again, I would change. He said that is what I said last time. He didn't believe me. There is nothing I could have said to him. His mind was set. He left. i called him and begged him to turn around. This is our 5th time breaking up. It always made me sick when people would do this. I know that it is for the best, but it hurts. It hurts a lot. The few friends that I have made are great. But it will be hard not talking to him. He was my world. I love him and I messed it all up. I hate that I got mad, I don't know why I do it. He said that people were laughing at us in the resturant, but I don't remember or care. I can't believe that this happen.
Thanks for letting me vent
Megan