...just knowing he's around

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Registered: 03-03-2008
...just knowing he's around
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Sun, 03-16-2008 - 10:20pm

As I mentioned in my first post, my ex an I were long distance for four of the five years we were together. Of course, back before our breakup, I always meticulously marked the dates he would be in town, so that I could prepare to see him, make dates and whatnot. Today was the first day he was scheduled to be back in town since we broke up. I don't even know if he is here (because I have been careful to keep NC since the breakup) except that my calendar says so, but just knowing he's could be just a few miles from me is just overwhelming me with sadness.

I'm journaling, crying, trying to keep my mind off things with preparations for the upcoming work week--doing all the "healthy" things that I should be, but of course, those things never quite take the edge off.

...just a vent. No need for advice--I already know what I should be doing--but a virtual hug might be nice.



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I can't go back to yesterday--because I was a different person then. --L. Carroll


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Registered: 10-18-2006
Mon, 03-17-2008 - 1:06am

{{{HUGS}}}


Hi UCS,


I soooo can relate to how you're feeling.

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Registered: 03-17-2008
Mon, 03-17-2008 - 9:18am
Wish I could give you a real physical hug because I know exactly what you are going through.
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Registered: 03-06-2008
Mon, 03-17-2008 - 10:36am
I know what you are going through and its HARD! {{ HUGS }}
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Registered: 08-22-2003
Mon, 03-17-2008 - 1:41pm

pinky - this might be a really dumb question (prolly because i have lack of knowledge of your story); but do you think you can call him and ask to have coffee? I know my situation is different than alot of people's on here - but whiel I dreaded seeing my ex, once it happened, it was ok.

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Registered: 10-18-2006
Mon, 03-17-2008 - 2:44pm

Hey Surfer!


Well me and my ex didn't get on good terms.

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Registered: 08-22-2003
Mon, 03-17-2008 - 5:06pm
sorry to hear this. i figiured there had to be a story behind it. i hope the weekend goes ok.
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Registered: 10-18-2006
Mon, 03-17-2008 - 5:17pm

I had a small "moment" of tears yesterday but I'm actually okay with our breakup.