...just knowing he's around
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| Sun, 03-16-2008 - 10:20pm |
As I mentioned in my first post, my ex an I were long distance for four of the five years we were together. Of course, back before our breakup, I always meticulously marked the dates he would be in town, so that I could prepare to see him, make dates and whatnot. Today was the first day he was scheduled to be back in town since we broke up. I don't even know if he is here (because I have been careful to keep NC since the breakup) except that my calendar says so, but just knowing he's could be just a few miles from me is just overwhelming me with sadness.
I'm journaling, crying, trying to keep my mind off things with preparations for the upcoming work week--doing all the "healthy" things that I should be, but of course, those things never quite take the edge off.
...just a vent. No need for advice--I already know what I should be doing--but a virtual hug might be nice.
uncommononsense
I can't go back to yesterday--because I was a different person then. --L. Carroll

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Hi UCS,
I soooo can relate to how you're feeling.
pinky - this might be a really dumb question (prolly because i have lack of knowledge of your story); but do you think you can call him and ask to have coffee? I know my situation is different than alot of people's on here - but whiel I dreaded seeing my ex, once it happened, it was ok.
Hey Surfer!
Well me and my ex didn't get on good terms.
I had a small "moment" of tears yesterday but I'm actually okay with our breakup.