Just a Little Update...

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Registered: 09-07-2004
Just a Little Update...
Mon, 07-10-2006 - 10:11am

Hi guys...I'm the one with the dangerous idea...haven't put it into action yet (hope I never will); I know how stupid it would be.

This weekend with HIM further cemented my need to get out. Three old girlfriends (count 'em, THREE) called him in the past few days. It's not the first time...he never answers the phone if I'm there, only if I'm not. If there's nothing to hide, why such secrecy?!?

Anyway, between the secrets and the lies, and obvious limitations regarding his kids (for some reason, I'm not allowed to meet the youngest...I have never seen his one-year-old grandson), I find myself looking at him with cold eyes.

And he wants to know what's going on behind those eyes...a part of me wants to try to explain how lonely I feel when he does these things, and the rest of me says "what's the use...I am beating a dead horse."

That "dangerous idea" is still in the back of my head, but I am fighting it. Any cheerleading you'd care to apply is appreciated!!

Hugs to all.