Last night was bad

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-08-2003
Last night was bad
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Mon, 07-10-2006 - 7:51am
Its been two weeks Yesterday I finally went over and got my stuff. He already had it packed up and ready to go. I guess he really wanted me out. I been in denial the last two weeks. but now that my stuff is out and I know he is already talking to another woman i know it is over. Im heart broken. The pain is unbearable. I didnt sleep last night. I tossed and turned and felt so paniced I ended up sitting upright clenching my pillow and just resting my head on it. I know it will get worse then this this is only the beginning. Its been two months of pure hell ever since i really realized it was over for him. I tried I begged I cried. 4yrs down the drain. I loved this man so much He was the one for me. But i guess i was wrong. Im sick in my stomach I havent been eating right. I feel lik eim going to throw up now as I type. The thought of him being with someone else kills me more then i can even explain.
iVillage Member
Registered: 05-09-2006
Mon, 07-10-2006 - 8:06am
I'm sorry you're feeling so awful. I noticed you said, "I know it will get worse then this is only the beginning"....that is not true, it will get EASIER. I know it doesn't feel like it now, but it will. It's hard to accept that our loved one doesn't want to be with us any more, and worse, is interested in someone else. But we have to accept these things and move on. It's hard, but the alternative is to allow ourselves to be miserable for the rest of our lives. And he IS NOT the one for you...the one for you WANTS to be with you and loves you and would never let you go. That person is out there. Try not to concentrate on him being with someone else (I know it's hard, but try). You have to take care of yourself now. Do the helpful things that people on this board always mention....do not have any contact with him whatsoever, spend time with family and friends, make a list of things you didn't like about your ex and read it every time you feel like you miss him, throw yourself into new activities and hobbies, etc. In time, you will begin to heal. And keep telling yourself this: you don't want to be with someone who doesn't want to be with you. If he can't appreciate all the wonderful qualities you have and what you have to offer, then it's his loss and you can do without him.
iVillage Member
Registered: 06-22-2006
Mon, 07-10-2006 - 10:46am

I'm so sorry the pain was so hard to bear last night.

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