The long weekend....

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Registered: 02-11-2006
The long weekend....
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Thu, 05-25-2006 - 8:13am

Well, it is almost here for me, the long holiday weekend, the one where we had plans to go away together. I changed the plans, am now going with a girlfriend, she is married. I thought he was going to be in one place now I am not so sure, he might end up where I am. I hope I don't walk into a nice big surprise. But honestly I maybe do want to see him.

I keep hearing all this news about him through friends, now he is not going to "playerville" as I call it, only for one month. Here we were arguing over this so much, he wanted to go every other weekend. Can't help it, but I cannot stop thinking he is settling down with someone else. NOT ME. So mad, and I guess, maybe I was hoping to see him this summer to see what would happen. But if he has not called me since May 5th and never responded to my emails, I doubt seeing me would make any difference. It makes me sick to think he is this much better with someone else, he must really be in la la land. Willing to give up his summer haven for her!

I am going away this weekend, hoping to cope, it is one big party atmosphere, hoping for fun. Hoping I don't fall into depression and spending time alone in my room crying.

I just wish I knew what the whole deal was with him, I wish I knew what was going on in his life. I don't know if it would be torture or not.

All I can hope for is fun.... I have so much to do today, work is not so stellar, I just want to be numb. I hope these feelings do not surface this weekend. I do not want to deal with it for 3 days.

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Registered: 09-16-2003
Thu, 05-25-2006 - 11:52am
I hope you have a fun weekend too, but be careful getting too numb....OK???