To Loris

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Registered: 06-19-2004
To Loris
Sat, 03-05-2005 - 5:22pm

To Loris, my unanswered love

Im waiting for the letters to become blue
for the evening
for the next day
and the first day we meet

The days go by
turn into weeks
My heart is filled with love
for you!

Im crushed
Im destroyed
Im so hurt
Im in so much pain
Im so alone
My tears are flowing
for you
my unanswered love
its most embarrassing
its feels like im stabbed a few times
when I hear some news
inside im ripped
outside is nothing to see

when Im alone
my tears are flowing again
there is so much inside me which never came out
it feels good to let go
but not of you

Is it you that I need?
Can I remember to have felt this before?
I cant
Why do I crave someone
Who I know is not for me
Wishing you would be

While Im living
Im wondering
why I have to waste my days
without you that I love

Im stuck in the past
Blind for my possible wonderful future
Not wanting to know
the love that is given to me now

I never know if I love you,
or if I love because I can
knowing you dont love me
I never knew it could be true
The way I feel
about you
my unanswered love

Im so strong
Im so happy
Im surrounded by love
But I keep my love
I'm saving my love
I want it
Im choosing to
I think this is how it has to be

I hope all the best for you
I hope that I can give my love for you
to someone else and that you will feel it!

I know it wasn't meant to be for us
Although I wanted it so much
And I was not in love like I was with you for so long

Today is many months later
Feels like years
I dont remember how you look
How I feel when Im with you
Its all an illusion
Thats what I have always thought with you
Only, sometimes, it wasnt anymore!

Today Im here alone again
After my love affairs since we were
I choose to be alone
And I choose to be craving you
I choose to cry
allowing myself the pain in my heart

Im crushed
Im destroyed
Im so hurt
Im in so much pain
Im so alone
My tears are flowing
for you
my unanswered love
its most embarrassing
its feels like im stabbed a few times
when I hear some news
inside im ripped
outside is nothing to see
I think this is how it has to be

Samantha