Losing my best friend
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| Tue, 02-27-2007 - 2:56am |
I was talking to some classmates tonight about how I didn't understand why I was so upset over my ex. I have been through many relationship ends and have never reacted so strongly before. I haven't been eating much since I feel queasy most of the time, I cry a lot when I am alone, I think about him so much it is distracting me from my school work. I have never been this messed up over a guy before and it is frustrating.
He was one of the first people I met when I moved to my new city and we were always doing things together, first as friends then in a relationship. He helped me adjust to the weather here with snow and ice which I hadn't really seen before. Would drive me to class when it was really cold or snowy. Helped me redo part of my apartment with a new office, dining table and suggested and hung a chandelier. He gave me a bunch of useful computer stuff including the keyboard I am typing on which was his. He grabbed the monitor I am looking during the Black Friday rush so I would have it.
After telling them some of this one of them wisely said it sounds like you are loosing your best friend. Thinking about it more I think they are right.
I have never really had that close of a relationship with a man before. I have been friends with some of the guys I have dated before but I never got as close to someone as I did to him.
I still have to see him once a week since he is in one of my classes. He used to take me home from this class since it is at night. I am having trouble finding another safe way home.
I didn't really stop to think about how much a part of my life he was until now. It is pretty depressing.
| Tue, 02-27-2007 - 9:51am |
| Wed, 02-28-2007 - 3:39pm |
