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| Fri, 11-03-2006 - 2:20pm |
About two months ago my boyfriend and I broken up. It's been four years of a long distance relationship. He has been my best friend through the good and the bad. I have wanted some sort of future plan for a while now. When I pushed him enough he finally said that he couldn't give me a future plan right now.
I have been trying my hardest to let go and not call but it is killing me. We used to talk every night. I have tried to be strong and let him go figure things out. Because I do not think he seriously does not want to be together. I know that if I want him back he needs to know that he lost me first. However, at this point I am not sure if it is better to be a friend to him or not. We hardly talk but when we talk I feel better for the first few days but after that I get terribly upset. My parents and friends do not know what to tell me. He has been totally honest to me for the past four years. I feel like he is trying to let me go because he knows the long distance is incredibly hard for me and with his job there is no end in site. It might sound crazy but I think he is letting me go because he is trying to stop hurting me.
On top of all this his parents have been going through a terrible break-up. It's been going on for years and his mom just keeps letting his dad walk all over her. He won’t talk about it and tells me he blocks it from his mind. I am so worried about him but at the same time I do not want to give into him. How do I support him in this difficult time but get him to realize how special I am? I want to reach out to him and tell him I will always be here for him but at the same time I feel like I am doing exactly what his mom would do and backing down. How do I be supportive and stand my ground?
I have been trying my hardest to let go and not call but it is killing me. We used to talk every night. I have tried to be strong and let him go figure things out. Because I do not think he seriously does not want to be together. I know that if I want him back he needs to know that he lost me first. However, at this point I am not sure if it is better to be a friend to him or not. We hardly talk but when we talk I feel better for the first few days but after that I get terribly upset. My parents and friends do not know what to tell me. He has been totally honest to me for the past four years. I feel like he is trying to let me go because he knows the long distance is incredibly hard for me and with his job there is no end in site. It might sound crazy but I think he is letting me go because he is trying to stop hurting me.
On top of all this his parents have been going through a terrible break-up. It's been going on for years and his mom just keeps letting his dad walk all over her. He won’t talk about it and tells me he blocks it from his mind. I am so worried about him but at the same time I do not want to give into him. How do I support him in this difficult time but get him to realize how special I am? I want to reach out to him and tell him I will always be here for him but at the same time I feel like I am doing exactly what his mom would do and backing down. How do I be supportive and stand my ground?
