Madder than a Wet Hen (was "Epiphany")
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Madder than a Wet Hen (was "Epiphany")
| Fri, 03-24-2006 - 11:12am |
I hit my anger phase of this break up yesterday. I changed the name because the other was not all that descriptive.
I was talking about how mad I was that I had it all and was so happy before he came into my life.

Get mad...get better! Good for you!
Kirby J
--DontDateHimGirl.com
Sing it sistah!!! I hit the anger phase on Friday. God, it feels so good not to want to puke all the time. I can manage anger so much better, although I rarely get angry otherwise. I started thinking about all the crap he pulled on me and how I fell for it everytime, he's perfected the art of playing the victim and making you feel like you're to blame.
Man, I am happy to be free of all that. He did a number on my self-esteem and I didn't even know it at the time. He tortured me with little crumbs of commitment talks, enough to feed me for a while until it came up again, and I settle for that!!!! How can you treat someone you supposedly love like that. What an a--hole!!!
To top it off, he called when he was drunk on Thursday night and fortunately I didn't answer his call. When I called him back on Friday (the only reason I did was to tell him to come anytime with the moving van), at first he denied ever calling, then slowly he admitted to it. When he asked about my weekend plans and told him I was doing homework, he encouraged me AGAIN to get out (like I was really going to tell him my plans), I finally blasted him saying that if he thought I was sitting at home on the couch pining away for him, he was wrong and that life goes on and my life didn't end. WOW, that felt good. His response, "so it sounds like you're done with me." Pathetic, still wanting to play the victim.
I love the anger phase and especially that he called me DWI (dialing while intoxicated), its never pretty and glad it wasn't me.
I like the new title a lot. Anger is such a good stage in that you usually feel energetic, instead of tired and drained. So use that energy!
The whole interest thing is a done deal (assuming he pays you) so don't be too hard on yourself. The fact is that no amount of money would really be "fair" for what you put up with.
Hang in there!
You know it girl!
Oh my!!!
I didn't realize how much crap I just accepted and went along with until I started thinking back and got out my old journal and saw how long it went on for. UGH!!! Trying hard not to beat myself up over it. I guess at the time I thought we were just working out the kinks of a live-in relationship, plus I loved him and he said he loved me.
Ironically, over the past few months we had been able to work out a lot of our issues mostly because I finally woke up to it and I wasn't standing for all his s--t anymore. He had become super supportive, compassionate, attentive and affectionate.
Oh well, life goes on. Trust me, I'm still riding the roller coaster, but happy that anger is here to stay this weekend.
Stay well and hold on!!