Made it Through This Time
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| Wed, 08-24-2005 - 1:52pm |
Hi everyone,
Yesterday I wrote that post about how I was having the urge and didn't want to call. Let me tell you, these boards are really saving me!!! You guys are the best and i'm so glad I found such a wonderful support system. This time I didn't cave and it's 8 days now of NC. My goal is to keep it that way. I've been trying to think rationally and put the whole thing into some sort of perspective. Someone at work said this to me: He's a drug addict. He may have stopped the pills, but he's addicted to pot whether he wants to admit it or not (he smoked pot, but when he stopped the pills and we were breaking up he smoked ALOT of pot almost all the time). He has an addictive personality, and he's masking some sort of pain with drugs I guess. I'm no doctor, but i'm guessing if I have an addictive personality (even though it's not with drugs) being with someone like him is probably not good for me anyway. Plus, he abandoned me after I was there for him during his time of need so he doesn't deserve me and why should I want that? I had sort of a moment of clarity there of my own and thinking about that helped me and cut that moment of weakness real quick. Anyway, i've been printing out all the responses I get here and keeping them so I can read them in times of need, and it's great to know you are all here.
Thanks, and lots of hugs and love,
Jacki
