Making it "over" when he says its not...

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Making it "over" when he says its not...
Tue, 08-07-2007 - 9:21pm
It's really hard to really move on, when he insists its just a "break." I did make it clear to him that I considered that the end, but it is not that easy for me when I really am still in love with him. He says he still loves me and is as in love with me as ever, yet not sure we should be together and thus wanted the indefinite months-long break that I took as a breakup. I am reading the Breakup b/c its Broken book-- hilarious-- yet finding everyone's complaints aren't true because I am trying to believe it's over because he really did sound unsure about EVERYTHING which means he's just trying to breakup nicely but... well, hard. Also hard to let go of stuff. I resent him all our snail mail letters and hard-copy pictures. I tore up his 4 day late bday card which said nothing anyway and included that as my not so subtle way of making sure he knew I was mad about his mistreatment of me on my birthday (since we broke up the night before--long distance relationship now). Anyway, I knew I couldn't destroy the letters but if he wants to say it's not over, he can keep them...because my heart can't afford to. I have thoght about burning all our emails and IM convos and digital pix to a disk and doing the same with it. I did not include a note, btw. I have been totally NC for a week. I last heard from him last Wednesday. Feels like an eternity. If I could just get my mind to move on because it hurts!