this is making me sick

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Registered: 12-31-1969
this is making me sick
Sun, 05-21-2006 - 7:21am

I was dating the perfect guy, always told me i was beautiful, didnt ever pressure me to do anything, took me out to dinner, took me shopping, took care of me when i was sick, skipped watching sports games to watch a movie with me. i had never been in a really serious relationship and i started feeling a little crowded. I began to not look forward to hanging otu with him as much as I used to and we started having some problems. If I didnt call him back within a day he would leave me numerous messages asking why I was ignoring him. I brought up a break a couple times to him over about a month and finally got up the courage to say I just wanted to be friends. He is such a genuinely kind person and everytime I tlaked to him about splitting we would both end up crying. Hurting him was the last thing i wanted to do. He told me that his feelings wernt going to change for me even though I no longer liked him like that. Now that we are officialy broken up I have had small crushes on other guys and stuff but now every time i see him talking or flirting with another girl I get super jealous and emotional. I will go home and cry for hours thinking about how much i miss holding his hand and hanging out wiht him but then somehow like a day later I can go out and have a really good time and be really into a different guy. This has been happening for about a month now and I dont know if it means that i shouldn't have broken up with him or it's just a normal first serious relationship breakup sort of thing. I just don't know what to think anymore, im so confused! please help!