Messed up even more now...please help!
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| Mon, 03-21-2005 - 10:36am |
This is long, but there is a very important question at the end.
Okay, so I've been posting about this and really trying to follow through with what everyone was saying. But, this Saturday, my ex and I were both in the library all day. (Law School). We talked a few times throughout the day. So about 7:00, he came to where I was sitting and asked if I wanted to go grab a bite to eat. We had gone to lunch a few days before. So, I thought sure it will be harmless, and maybe we can actually be friends. Well he still does flirt and act jealous, and I try not to do the same even though I am the one with stronger feelings obviously.
So, we went to dinner and both went back to the library and said good night. Well I left and went to a friends house nearby where I had a few glasses of wine. Well he called and we were chatting about bball and I invited him over to watch. So, he came over, I was a little tipsy for sure and he wasnt. Then he and I went out for a couple drinks and then of course he spent the night. I mean I knew what I was doing, and dont think it is that big of a deal. I also know he's getting exactly wants and I am not.
But, what I don't understand is why he still acts like he cares so much. I can see it in his eyes. And, the next day, yesterday night, before bed we talked for 30 minutes about everyday stuff. But, I was saying how us hanging out what wrong and he was just like oh it happens all the time. Then he said but I really have so much fun with you still. And, I know we have amazing chemistry and a great time together. I just don't see what's missing.
Well since I am about to graduate and move away and he has 2 years left here. I'm thinking of just clarifying with him one last time. Specifically I want to ask him, look before I go home this week and sign a lease and all of that, are you sure this is what you want??? I feel like I just need to clarify this, and hear it myself. But, then I'm afraid he wont really tell the truth. Like, I want to know what it is that he cant see about us. He only says he doesnt want a relationship right now, and believe me he acts that way too.
So, would this be a bad idea to ask him and try to clarify it once and for all before I move away and there is no chance????
| Mon, 03-21-2005 - 9:20pm |
