miserable

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Registered: 09-28-2004
miserable
Tue, 10-19-2004 - 11:26am
Of all the bad things my ex did and said to me I still miss him.

I still find myself thinking about him, and the worst thing is, is that I can't stand the thought of him and another woman!! The thought of that makes me sick to my stomach.

We just broke up on saturday, and got into a terrible fight on sunday, after which we spoke calmly and he told me he'd return my cell phone to me on monday. So, yesterday morning he called me, not really saying much, then told me he'd call me back. He called again, and I told him I'd call him back, and he said he was on a payphone. So he asked what time I'd be back from lunch, and told me he'd try again later. Which he never did.

I know I shouldn't be expecting his call, but I do. It hurts so much to sit here at work and not be able to focus on anything else. I miss him so much, and I can't stop crying. He was supposed to bring me my phone yesterday, but he didn't, and he didn't call either. He still hasn't called today, which hurts a lot. How come it's so easy for him not to call and not to care about the way he treated me? I used to think he was the most sensitive guy, but now I find myself wondering if he even has a heart?