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Missing him terribly
| Tue, 03-28-2006 - 11:05am |
Its been 7 days now since we talked and 2 weeks since i last saw him. I miss him so much. I have a BIG urge to call him and see if he's changed his mind. He has to miss me too, he loved me too. Everything reminds me of him, my room, my restroom, I keep imagining him coming through the door. My friend keeps telling me he's going to come back and that makes me feel better, but then I think I can bring him back sooner. And what if he meets somebody else, and he did say bye have a nice life, I wish you the best i always did. He said we both tried and we were just different, that doesnt sound like he's coming back...arrgggg

hi lamago
i'm so sorry that you feel so sad. but dont worry this is only for right now like they say time would heel. i was like that same situation as your with my exbf his actually my second love. at first i thought i will never forget about him or something. almost everyday i cant sleep and i even used sleeping pills just to make me sleep but i think BRAIN IS THE MAIN CONTROLLER OF OUR BODY...SO MY MIND IS AWAKE AND MY BODY IS ALL TIRED BUT STILL I COULDNT SLEEP AT ALL COZ I THINK OF HIM EVERY SEC.
THATS THE HARD PART I JUST FEEL THAT MY BODY START SHAKING COZ OF THE SLEEPING PILLS. BUT STILL I CANT SLEEP!!! I EVEN CALL HIM THAT TIME ONCE IN A WHILE COZ OFCOURSE I GET USED THAT HIS AROUND. BUT ACTUALLY ITS WEIRD COZ ONEDAY I CALL HIM AND ASK IF HE HAS GIRLFRIEND AND IF HE HAD GF ALREADY I WONT BATHER TO CALL ANYMORE. AFTER I ASK HIM 20X TIMES HE ADMIT THAT HIS DATING SOMEONE. SO I TOLD HIM THAT I WILL LEAVE HIM ALONE AND IT HURT ME SO BAD I CRIED. BUT WHAT CANT I DO RIGHT?
SO AFTER 2/3 MONTHS HE CALL ME. HE CAME TO MY HOUSE. BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPEN MY FEELING IS NOT THERE ANYMORE. IT FADED! COZ I THINK I WAS START ADMIRING OTHER GUY THAT
TIME. HE WAS BEGGING ME TO COME BACK AND MARRY HIM AND START HAVING KIDS. HE WAS REMINDING ME OF OUR PLANS BEFORE TO HAVE A BABY GIRL. I TOLD HIM SORRY ITS TOO LATE I'M NOT IN LOVE ANYMORE ALMOST EVERYTIME HE KEEP ON CALLING ME BUT WHAT CANT I DO MY FEELING IS NOT THERE IS NOT BECAUSED I WANT TO REVENGE RIGHT!!!
SO DONT FEEL SO BAD. ATLEAST YOU LEARN FROM THAT EXPERIENCE. TRUST ME ONEDAY WHEN HE COME KNOCKING YOUR DOOR AND YOUR STRONG AND YOUR FEELING IS ALL GONE...YOU EVEN START WONDERING WHY DID YOU USE TO LIKE THIS GUY AND SEE ALL HIS UGLYNESS.
I'M WISHING YOU GOOD LUCK AND FIND THE RIGHT "MAN" NOT ONLY JUST A GUY. TO BE WITH YOU AND LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE.....GOD BLESS YOU DEAR
You know sometimes as much as it hurts you just have to accept that your ex was not the right person for you. My boyfriend and I broke up this past weekend and it was REALLY hard for the two of us to come to that decision. It wasn't that either of us treated each other badly, it was just that we weren't making each other happier anymore.
As you are feeling, I would be so thrilled to have him walk through my door and tell me that we made a mistake. But I know that that would just be putting a band aid on the situation. It would make us feel better for the short term, but in the long term we would end up breaking up and getting hurt all over again.
I have gone through so many relationships in my lifetime and I have to say that the best thing to get over someone is to cut all communcation. It's so easy to say and so hard to do. But it's the best thing for some one with a broken heart to move on. Talking, texting, IMing, emailing... will just set you back in your healing process. You have done so well by not talking to him for a week, don't ruin that... you need your space to heal.
Know that there are people out there who are thinking of you and going through the same thing. Broken hearts are the WORST and most painful thing but time heals all wounds and we will all be waking up one day realizing that we haven't thought about our ex in days...
Stay strong!!