Moment to Moment

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Registered: 09-21-2006
Moment to Moment
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Tue, 01-16-2007 - 4:50pm
I was fine all weekend. Keep busy etc....but today driving home I just burst into tears. Is this common?
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Registered: 08-04-2003
Tue, 01-16-2007 - 5:35pm
Yep it's normal. Emotions can sneak up you at any time.


Carrie

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Registered: 11-03-2006
Tue, 01-16-2007 - 6:47pm
i think so....imagine me and my ex was broken up for about 9mths...isnt i'm supposed to be over him and move on.....i dont think of him like i used to....but if i'm hearing staff about him(like his dating someone) for some reason there's still a little pain in my heart that i cant explain.....i feel like calling him to argue..i feel like he used me and all those negative thought...come's out on my mind...and its hard to explain. the SAD part is i cant do anything about it cuz his not with me anymore....but most of the time i feel better...i'm so proud of myself...cuz i dont call him anymore...it was his bday last sunday...i didnt call atleast just to greet him....even i know he greet me on my bday...by doing that i felt like i kinda revenge on him already....LOL
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Registered: 01-01-2007
Wed, 01-17-2007 - 6:24am
This is very common. I do it all the time. My break up happened right before New Years Eve and I cried all weekend. I was good on and off during the week (thank god I could go to work and avoid it). I haven't had a real meltdown in a wk or so but then yesterday it hit me. He had called a few times and I hadn't answered the phone but I did yesterday and it was horrible. He didn't call to talk nice to me he was a jerk and of course it upset me. I had a mini meltdown at work (thank god the womens restroom has doors on the stalls right) Then again last night I talked to my friend, my sister and my brother in law and lost it all 3 times. I'm doing better RIGHT NOW but who knows how long that will last. We just get sad but everyone tells me that it'll pass. I hope they're right.
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Registered: 09-21-2006
Sat, 01-20-2007 - 6:20pm
I was fine until today. I ahve 17 unopened emails form him in my mailbox. I have been hanging wtih my girls all week and have a friend who is interested in dating, but I said let's wait until I'm ready cuz I don't want to be unfair. I let my part time job and thought of him and just started bawling. I wish I knew what triggered this.
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Registered: 01-01-2007
Sun, 01-21-2007 - 7:21am

I u/s what you are feeling, especially lately. I've been miserable lately having miscellaneous breakdowns and it really really sucks. My poor family is sick to death of me calling them and then for no reason busting into tears.

I hadn't seen my ex for a wk b/c like I said before in a previous post he sleeps at a friends house and basically come to the apt to get clothes when I'm not here. It's easy to avoid seeing me b/c he works swing shift and I'm set 8-4 so he knows when I'm around.
Anyhow, he's been calling me during the week just to say hey and start an arguement about something small. I don't know maybe he's not trying to argue but I get defensive b/c I'm angry about the whole situation. Well he stopped over yesterday before he went to the gym. He was gone for 4 hrs (who goes to the gym for 4 hrs?) Then stopped by after telling me he was going with his friend to the mall before work. Whatever b/c my friend was at the apt with me and he asked if she wanted to go the mall (good thing she said no).
Just him stopping by made my heart break and I just can't get out of this funk now. I want to cry all the time and I feel like it's pathetic.

My ex had asked me what I was doing last night and I told him I was going out with a friend. But when it really came down to it I didn't even go. I don't know why...emotions taking over, feeling pathetic, just lazy.. I don't know but as soon as I didn't go I was mad at myself.

Again, as previously posted my family lives in upstate NY and I'm seriously thinking that I just need to go back there. I moved here to OH to be with him and it didn't work, maybe it's time I be with my family again. I don't know, it just breaks my heart that I can't stop thinking about him and us and what "not us" and that he's out having the time of his life while I sit at home and mope/crying my eyes out. I don't know how to not be sad.