My birthday
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| Thu, 07-26-2007 - 3:36pm |
Saturday is my birthday, I will be 31. And all I can do is cry because the man I love is not with me anymore. He broke up with me right after my birthday a year ago. He got tired of my jealousy. We are friends today (rather he is friends, and I try to fake it). You would've thought after a year I would have moved on as he has done. If only I could or would, I guess. I guess part of me feels that if I move on, it will be over. Not that it isn't over, I guess I just hope that maybe someday....of course someday seems to pass by everyday.
I'm just babbling here really. No one to really talk to about this, because all I hear is that I deserve someone that will stick around. The thing is that he is a great man, a loving and caring man and I screwed up because of insecurities and now I will never get that back. I just miss him and God help me I want so badly to tell him this, even though I know it won't do a bit of good.

Welcome to the board singlemom6,
How sad that you are in the same state emotionally as a year ago.... why fake being his friend?
Hi Carrie, funny that is my sisters name. You are right and I know you are right. My brain knows it is the right thing to do but God I wish someone would tell my heart. Thank you for the book title, I am purchasing it now. My wish for my birthday is that I can move on and get over this man.
You know, I've been in relationships before and they have ended. And for the most part I have been able to move on. But not this one, why is that? Why do I keep myself in this place of constant hurt and tears. I'm tired of being sad over someone who doesn't want me. How stupid is that. I have said it allowed many times..."I'm in love with someone that doesn't want me and has told me this". But yet I still hang on, I still hope. Hope is supposed to be a good thing, but I guess not in this case.