my new therapy!!!

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Registered: 11-19-2006
my new therapy!!!
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Tue, 11-21-2006 - 1:49pm

It's almost been two weeks and there are still days when it is an accomplishment to just get out of bed in the morning. It is absolutely amazing to me that the second I wake up I start thinking about him. I guess I can't expect to get over 4 years in a few days but I am tired of feely so overwhelmed with sadness. So when I wake up in the morning I jump in the bath tub with my headset and listen to a song called "girl from the gutter" by Kina. It's amazing how music can either depress, enlighten or empower you....this one empowers me...(okay, so maybe at times that feeling only lasts for a little while but with each passing day it lasts longer!) Maybe, just maybe it will help one other person Here are the lyrics...

For all the things you said I'd never do For all the
things you said that were untrue For all the times you made
me feel alone Said I'd never make it on my own(chorus 1)Things are lookin' up for me now Seems like Karma's makin' its roundsIts my
turn now, won't be held down no Karma's gonna
visit you too You gotta pay for the things you put me
throughI hope you do, I hope you do, yeah, yeah(chorus 2)I hope your hell is filled with magazines And on every page you see a big picture of meAnd under
every picture the caption should read Not bad for a girl
from the gutter like meFor all the times you said "I
got your back"For all the times you stabbed me For
all the times you tried to hurt my prideFor all the pain I
held down deep inside(Chorus 1)Things are
lookin' up for me nowSeems like Karma's
makin' its rounds Its my turn now, won't be held
down noKarma's gonna visit you tooYou gotta pay
for the things you put me throughI hope you do, I hope you
do, yeah, yeah(Chorus 2)I hope your hell is
filled with magazinesAnd on every page you see a big
picture of meAnd under every picture the caption should
read Not bad for a girl from the gutter like meNeeded to make me weak to help you feel stronger I know y'all bitches think I'm somewhere dyin' inside O yeah poor Kina, she went home She couldn't take it
no longer But I'm, right hereI'm
right hereI'm right here

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Registered: 12-09-2004
Tue, 11-21-2006 - 9:33pm

jland283...I LOVE that song, and it has gotten me thru many tough moments. Have you listened to any of her others, like "Just Let Me Have a Cry"" or "Me" ? It's almost like a soundtrack for breaking up.

This is too crazy! :o)

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Registered: 11-19-2006
Wed, 11-22-2006 - 12:11am
No I haven't heard any of her other music but I will hunt those down and listen to them. I don't think that I have come across anyone else that has heard of her!
Are you also going through a recent breakup?
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Registered: 12-09-2004
Wed, 11-22-2006 - 11:03am

Unfortunately, I've gone thru too many breakups to count...with the same guy, over 5.5 years. But finally, enough was enough, and I'm determined to let this one be the last time with him once and for all.

Yeah, I don't know too many people that have heard of her either...but one day, I pulled out her CD (even though I had listened to it many times before), but the words really began to resonate. So yeah, check out some of her other stuff, she's pretty talented....and appropriate for this time in our lives.