My own fault.

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Registered: 10-31-2006
My own fault.
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Tue, 10-31-2006 - 2:44am
Ok, so here is my situation. A few years ago, I fell in love for the first time. He went away to college and after a few months, I was lonely, even though he was still madly in love with me. We kind of grew apart. I got curious and started having feelings for a new guy. Then I broke up with my long distance boyfriend because I was unsure of what I really wanted and I thought it wasn’t fair. So he hated me, he swore me off for 2 years, and wrote horrible songs about me. OK, I moved on, dated a guy for a year and half, we broke up though. So over the past few months, me and my first love started talking again. We hung out a little this summer and it was good to be friends again, but I thought nothing more of him than friends. He told me he had feelings for me again, but I paid no attention to it. We started talking more and more. Then a little more than a month ago I went to visit him, drank a little too much, and he made a move on me, but I didn’t stop him. I was so embarrassed about it. But then, we kept talking and I started to miss him again. So we’ve met up a few times and hooked up, but when we weren’t together, we’d stay up all night talking on the phone, I mean, until the sunrise. A week ago, I went to visit him. We talked about getting back together, but he didn’t want the long distance thing, obviously, but everyone said they could tell he loved me because he talked about me all the time. So we weren’t together. That night I drank, but he didn’t and I ended up kissing a guy he knew at a party. He found out, and I’m so ashamed. I was really falling for him again, but I didn’t want to admit it. Now he won’t talk to me. I think I really love him, but I’m not sure if it’s because he wants nothing to do with me. It’s not a physical thing at all. I miss talking to him and I brought this all on myself. He won’t answer my phone calls, and I don’t know what to do, I just miss him so much.
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Registered: 06-22-2006
Wed, 11-01-2006 - 2:45am

....."He won’t answer my phone calls, and I don’t know what to do, I just miss him so much.".....

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